Restart a new blog!

I really have no idea how to continue this blog, too many things to write, don't know where should I start from.

I will only come here, while I m emo, so if I continue writing here would means I will continue to be emo. So why don't I start a new blog, to let myself to have a new start.

Too many things happened within the past 2 months.

i. I lost my iPhone 2 weeks ago.

ii. Then now my lappy got problem, it auto shut down after using for 10mins +.

iii. A month ago, I attached with a guy after knowing him less then 1 week, and broke up after 3days.

Shiuji has been weaken after all these things, wish may have a peace day soon. Wish my dreams may come true.

Daily Waiting!!!

Tomorrow Monday again. Really don't like this day, but this is LIFE.

First day of every month will start waiting last day of the month for SALARY.

Monday will start waiting Friday for WEEKEND.

Every working day 9am will start waiting 6pm for OFF WORK.

Since life is so boring, create something wonderful for yourself.

What should I create tomorrow to make the whole week special? LOL

Fighto OHHH....

No Good Time!

Exam coming soon, I have been studying my law whenever I am free and available to study. Now I come to this part, "No good consideration!" But I m not contracted into any promises or obligation. But just having "No Good Time".

Trying my very best to make Mr.R my good friend, but friendship doesn't seems to be work with just one party exercising it. Anyway since letting go is a must, without breaking our friendship, strengthen the friendship is the best way. And I m proud of myself that I m doing a good job with letting go this person. Now I m AVAILABLE!

Many things happen recently, my sister in my office break off with her 4~5-years relationship boyfriend, another good friend of mine in office break off with her 2years relationship boyfriend also, I think another female colleague of mine sitting behind me also... I saw her cried heavily last 2 weeks, should be break off with her 3months relationship boy friend. And all happen in the same week. Hard to find good and LOYALTY guy!


This song is nice. "坏人" 你是个好人，也是个坏人 You are a good guy, also a bad guy...

Recently I wish to make a friendship with a guy. I stay Pasir Ris (1st MRT station from east), he stay Tempines (2nd MRT station from east). We both work at Shaw Tower, Beach Road, my office at 24th floor, his at 28th floor. For the past 2months, almost everyday, I can see him from Tempines station to Shaw Tower, whole journey is about 35mins.

But recently I don't see him at the MRT door where I always meet him. But I do see him when we come to the main road which head to our office building. Which means he change place to stand and his way to office. Hidding?

16th Nov 2009 Monday, during lunch time, my colleagues and I waiting for lift and 24th floor lobby, once the door open, I saw him in the lift and I whisper to my best friend and my sister that he is the one. haha... Then after work, when I leaving my office, I met him again in the lift. Is that fate? Today, is the first time we go home together, he walk very fast, but we still get to board at the same train but next door. Where I just can see him from far.

He look stress everytime while he see me. That makes me not dare to look at him at all. I wish I could talk to him. But I m not brave enough to do so. I can see, he is not gay, just a normal straight guy, but I just wish to know who is he, and wish to be his friend. Just as simple as that. (Maybe he has Mr.R feature, but my best friend and my sister disagree)

有缘无分吧！

P.S. Many people bless me to have my true love before my 21st Birthday. Impossible to come true I think... haha..

Truth behind Words!

White Devil! Revive!

I read these from a chinese blog authored by my blogger friend. And hope to share these here, because I feel that all the truth behind those simple message are quite true.

(Translation might not be 100% accurate due to my poor english)

1. 当你收到“你干嘛呢？”实际上是想说“我想你了”。
1. When you receive "What are you doing?". But actually he is trying to say "I miss you!"

2. 当你收到“呵呵”，多是没笑或者傻笑。
2. When you receive "hehe". Majority means he is not smiling or giggle.

3. 但如果是“哈哈”或者“嘿嘿”，这时你打过去一定是在笑。
3. But if you receive "haha" or "heihei", sure one is laughing when he type.
Not really...

4. 说你“傻瓜”或者“笨蛋”其实是关心你，担心你，希望你照顾好自己。
4. When he say "silly" or "stupid". Actually he is caring and worrying about you, hope you can take care yourself.
Sometime...

5. 如果是问句结束，其实是希望能和你多聊一会儿。
5. If sentence end with question mark, actually he wish to chat more with you.

6. “哦”多半是在敷衍。
6. If he answer "oh". Majority means he is just perfunctory entertaining you.

7. 但如果是“知道啦”，“收到”，“遵命”之类的则表示比较在意。
7. But if he answer "I know le", "get it", "yes sir" and so on, which mean he care with it.

8. 有时劝你忙自己的，其实他是口是心非。
8. Sometime when he asking you to busy your work don't bother him, actually he do not mean it.
Silly

9. 把他的傻事，丢面的或失落的事告诉你，是希望你安慰他，开导他，甚至骂骂他。
9. Telling you all the silly things, shameful things that he did, actually he hope you to comfort him, or even scold him.

10. 主动发信息给你，说明你在他心目中有一定的分量，一般人不喜欢和不在意的人罗嗦。
10. Text you actively, means you are important to him, normally people won't talk much to people that they don't care.

11. 如果给你起外号，是希望你可以记住他多一点。
11. If he give you a nickname, means he hope you remember him.

12. “我刚到”，“我已经到家咯”说明进屋第一个想到的是你。
12. "I just reach", "I reach home le" shows that once he reach home, the first in his mind is you.

13. “你到家了就告诉我一声”，“你到家了没啊？”意思是我要你一定平安了，我不许你有事。
13. "Tell me when you reach home", "Have you reach home?" means he want you to be safe, don't allow you get hurt.

14. 有时不会那么巧就发错给你，可能是他想发给你又实在又没东西发，虽然这样很愚蠢。
14. There will never be an action called accidentally sent, maybe he wish to send something to you but dont know what to say. Although that is silly.

15. 收到“转发2人会幸福哦”，是他觉得这条短信很有意思，但是不忍心让你转发给10人，就偷偷把10改成了2。
15. Change to "forward to 2persons will get happiness oo", means he felt that this message is meaningful, but don't want you waste money to send to 10 persons, so he change to 2 instead of 10.

16. 凡是那种“不转发就会不幸”咒语性质的，他不是没有收到过，但是绝不会转发给你.
16. Those message says "if don't forward you will get curse.", it doesn't mean he won't receive this kind of message if he don't send you, just he will never forward to you.

17. 有一阵你没有收到过他的短信，但不表示他草稿箱里没有。
17. If he didn't text you for sometime, it doesn't means his draft box is empty.

18. 如果可能，他晚上不关机就是因为你。
18. If possible, he don't shut down the phone at night all because of you.

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To those who long time didn't see me...
I'm no longer hunger for becoming silver dolphin!
I m White Devil! Light in darkness, Darkness in light!

I really did all the silly things above before. Although is meaningless now. Thats good thing for me, at least shows to myself that, I m not kidding at that moment.

I m happy now, because I know the truth. Although it had came to an end.

Public Holiday ~No Holiday~

(This song is very sweet.)


By right, 20th September 2009 (Sunday) is Hari Raya Puasa, Malay New Year. 21st Sept 2009 (Monday) is a replacement of public holiday of Malay New Year. So it is a good chance for me to go clubbing at Zirca, because every Sunday is their special night ~ Super Star. It means this is a good chance for me to dance as crazy as I like, shake until I forget him, find someone to replace HIM in my brain. Since he won't want me...

BUT

My stupid collage have lesson in this morning, because they know we don't work this day. Damn it. Thats pull me back from clubbing. Make me woke up early on this public holiday morning, rushing to school and hurt my finger while changing my earing. Damn pain.

I wear blue big V-neck T, black jeans, white sport shoe with black vest and old style sunglass. When I walk on the MRT from one end to another. So many people staired at me. Sure because too gay... Damn it...

On my way, I sms Sen Dear to check for me the flight time for today from Singapore to Penang. Because I wanna wish him good luck before he leave Singapore. Silly. But now I know he reach Penang le... hehe..

Don't want to write too much le. Wanna sleep le... Good night ~@~

Thank you!!!

I don't know what had happen. Sounds like this come too sudden. Anyway, I know you won't read this post. Even if you come, you will leave immediately I think.

4th Sept 2009, that night I did something really wrong. As you told me you want his msn before, I thought you wanna know him, so I brought him into our conversation. But I didn't expect such an ending. I tried my very best to explain to both of parties. One party told me: "is OK! never mind" So I didn't care much. And the other party promise me won't tell people who is it, but he just shout to express his feeling on facebook. What had happen after this or behind of me? I don't know.

6th Sept 2009, but this morning, Kevin asked me: "He angry with you?" But I still blur don't know what had happen. Until the afternoon, I found myself tagged on his photo, and when I wanna comment on it, then just only I realized I had been removed from his friend list. Then I go back to check my blogger.com, and I find out 1 follower stop following me and his blog posts were totally gone from my daskboard.

This is too sudden. My brain is empty. I hope Mr.R is around, but he is not, anyway, he don't care. Thanks for yanny gor, chat to me on the phone; Zac gor, chat to me on msn; Sen, trying to understand; 翔少，trying to make me happy.........

I just feel kinda wastage. 10months of friendship ended due to a 20mins msn, which less than 30sentences. For me, one seconds friend, forever friend. But I can't do anything. To him, I am totally not trust worthy I think. (I think is to everyone...) Every relationship ended normally are because of lack of trust. For this as well.

I don't expect you to forgive me. But thanks for being my gor for the past 10months. I am really proud of having you as my gor. (You won't accept it anymore...) I am using the perfume you recommended to me, I always think of you when I use. Sorry.. Maybe this is really my fault. Please don't forgive me, but forget me. Don't remember people hurt you before. I won't appear in front of you anymore, I don't want you get hurt anymore.

Please accept my last sentence: Thank you, Gor...

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Net Friends VS Real Friends

Suddenly curious with this title.

Net Friends VS Real Friends

Isn't it net friends could hardly become real friends?

I don't know what about others, but it really applied to me. Sometimes really feel lonely. Take my account in Facebook.com as an example.

Majority of my post hardly receive more then 5comments. And the 5 are normally some close friend. (Where the others in my friend list? they never bother others?) But some of those handsome can easily get more then 20comments in less then 5mins with just a simple post (ie. boring...).

Comments being ignored. Don't know is it normal people won't reply comments, or just not going to reply mind. Maybe you would say I think too much. But somehow they really do that really obvious. Many comments I made on some people's post have actually being ignored by that owner. Many people also commented on that particular post, but the owner replied to all of them, except me.

Net friends never last look. This two days your might have 1000topics to talk with, but come to the third day, your might back to stranger again. (Just example, normally wont that short...)

Anyway, as a friend, I will still care of you no matter you are my net friend or real friend. But you appreciate my kindness or not is your own business. I can't force anyone to be my friend.

Just understand my theory.

Once friend, Friend FOREVER!!!

Don't want to talk so much. Feeling being ignored after reading so many blogs.



青春Amigo - 修二与彰

Suddenly feeling like sharing this song. Amigo is means FRIEND! This was my favorite song during my secondary school time. Because since there I was being abandoned by most of them. I'm just wanted to be involve in formal things. Like doing homework, copy in the exam and projects. Other then that like sports (because I m fat?), outing, movie, shopping. They never inform me.

Maybe kinda scared of lonely. I always tried make myself stronger. So during collage time, I had actually became the most active person in the class. But what outing I organized will actually not much of supporter, in the end, due to short of people, the outing canceled. But if others organize something, I sure will attend (issit too 38), and we actually have fun with it. Maybe I m the joker for them.

There are some happy memory; there are some sad memory. Now all become my nice memory. I don't have a wonderful secondary school life. Thats why I love watching school base drama. And I found this song ~ 青春Amigo. (issit consider a replacement?)

Lonely Tree!!!

Please, Dont Go - SHINee

不知从何月何日，
他无疑地在我心中深处拨了种子，
那颗种子没被呵护，没浇水，
可是却一天一天长大。

在短短的几个月内，
他已变成棵大树了，
搬不走，也移不动的地步，
因为根已长到根深地固。

虽然树是长在我心中，
可是他就让我感觉无比的远，
永远触摸不到，拥抱不到，
就有如处在另一个空间永远无可达到。

虽然他是一棵树，
可是他不会为我开花结果，
因为他不长绿叶，不会为我则风挡雨，
他不长果食，不会给我甜蜜滋味。

它长在我心中，
却对我冷落无比，
可是我还对他一样的爱着，守着，
只是不能在他身边护着。

很想把他连根拔起，
因为他对我一点用处都没有，
可是却下不了手，忍不了痛，
到最后还是把他留住受尽百痛。

希望有人能为我把他给搬走，
让我心中有回个空位，
好让我找回棵可靠的树，幸福之树，
因为不想再对自己残忍下去。

可是好树不好找，
好树也不会想要长在我漆黑的心中，
因为没阳光给他食物，没水源给他呵护，
那我哪可能找到棵爱我之树呢？

特别是现在这个地步，
人人不能接受的地步，
因为我身已脏了，心已碎了，
就连现在心中的大树也守不住了。

一无所有。。。。。。。。。。

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Suddenly feeling to post in Chinese, because recently reading too much Chinese note in Facebook.com that written by most of my friends.

Not going to translate it. Because my English really poor.

P.S. Anyone willing to translate for me?

Sorry Shiuji!!!

Run - Leona Lewis

I just realized I don't know Shiuji. I don't know what he really need, what he really want.

What I really need? I don't know...
What I really want? I don't know...
Am I too lonely? Most probably...

Sometime too lonely will drive me to do something that will make me regret for the whole of my life. Many people asked me, why are you so desperate to have a boyfriend? Because I really scared of lonely.


Suddenly feeling like telling a story here.

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Longtime ago, there was this little boy who are not accepted by others. Because, he is ugly on his face, poor in game, evil in the heart. He never has a friend to play with him, not even while PE lesson, no one are willing to form a group with him. So everyday he just play alone behind the school store room with his best friend ~ a old beach ball, while others were playing football or basketball at the field.

Because he was too lonely, anyone or anything can easily catch his interest. So there comes a 40+ uncle wanna play with him. At start this boy refused the offer of that uncle, but the uncle keep on approaching him. So finally he accepted to play with that uncle, and game wasn't fun at all. After just a few minutes, that uncle kick that ball out to the fence.

Without helping the boy to pick the ball, he just said sorry and went off. After that, the boy swear never play with stranger again and he start saving his pocket money to buy a new ball.

After a year, this little boy used up all his saving in the year to buy himself a new and nice ball. Although one year has past, but still no one are willing to play with him. So he gotto hide behind the school store room to play alone.

One day, when this boy was playing happily. A 40- uncle approached him to play the ball with him. Maybe that boy was over lonely and he forgotten about the old lesson, he once again accept the uncle offer. This uncle even worse, he kick the ball out to the fence, without saying sorry and he left. From that day onwards, the little boy hate uncle from the bottom of his heart.

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I wanna tell sorry to Shiuji, because I did something even worse to him.

Just now on my way home, when I was sitting in the MRT, lying my head on the window, I think of the sweet moment I saw this morning, which is two boys were sitting together on the MRT, and one was lying his head on the other, and reflect back to what I did just now? At that moment, I was totally burst. I don't know why I can do something like that.

So I sms my sister in my office. She was so worried after receiving my sms, she keep on calling me, but I never dare to pick up. I don't want to talk, because I find myself so dirty and my mouth so smelly. So I just replied her, telling her that I'm ok. And she replied: -

No matter what happen, I will not feel you are "dirty".. I will always beside you. Just tell me if you want to. Don't think of all the bad things. Remember you still got me as your sister.

Once I read this sms, I totally burst with tears, I immediately close my eyes to control my tears flowing out. I really regret what I just did. I found myself ugly, weak, stupid, dirty and useless. My brain was blank, I don't know what had happen, just don't want to see myself in the mirror.

After a minutes plus, my sister sent me another sms: -

Shiuji, Don't be not happy ok? After 12am is another brand new day for you.. If you think you are dirty just go to take bath.. Maybe I am more dirty than you.. Must be happy.. I wish to see you as a happy guy.

I don't know after today, I still have the chance to see my own true smile or not. What I just know is... People never see my sad side.

I tried to make myself happy, I walked into 7eleven, see any food that can make me happy. But I find nothing, because I don't know what food can make Shiuji happy. I really don't know. Tonight, I talk less then 10words. Really don't want to open my mouth.


P.S. Don't worry... I will heal myself soon... But it really takes time... I hope not another year again...

Enjoyable Moment!!!

Life is busy!!! Life is tough!!!

I used to think to be a musician. But without my parents support, I can't afford to buy myself a trumpet, as that is the only instrument I know. Actually I like piano the most, but my parents will never support me for that.

At the time I leave my secondary school, I tell myself to work, save money and learn piano at the same time. But you think life is so easy? You think life will go on as what you planned? NO...

Once I leave secondary, I was force by my father to work in his factory as a labour (not office work), he stop me from further study, that stop my original plan. Luckily one of my mom's friend stand up to explain to my father. Then my father sent me to study LCCI in Shen Jai School of Commerce in IPOH.

After completing my LCCI, I thought I can back to my plan, but same things happened. My father force me to work as a labour again. So this time, my mom gave me S$600 and sent me to Singapore (The S$600 was to let me survive before I found a job). Working in Singapore isn't that easy. As a foreign worker like me, no experience, no qualification and no brain is hard to find a well pay job here.

To survive in Singapore, I need higher income. For that, I need to further study which is ACCA. So all my saving went to school fee and exam fee. How to learn piano?

I didn't dare to think of learning piano or continue playing music. Just enjoy the moment when others playing instead of playing myself.

Same thing apply here!!!

Never have true love come into my life;
Just watching others to enjoy their true love moment!

Never have the chance to hold my lover's hand on the street (I don't have one either);
Just watching others to enjoy their precious moment.

Never have the chance to hug someone tightly like this;
Just watching others to enjoy their sweetest moment.

Never have the chance feel the sexual moment on the bed,
Just watching others to enjoy the enjoyable moment on the screen.

Stop silly thinking. Lets enjoy the music above. Is super nice and enjoyable.

P.S. Thanks to Sen dear, he introduce the video to me. MUARRRKKK...

Shiuji EMO"ing"

Recently, my mood is going up and down. No specific reason, just NO MOOD!!! Brain keep on thinking negatively. Most of my friends chat with me on msn will know, recently I really not in my own situation!!! Shiuji seems like not as happy as last time!!! Super EMO!!! Sorry... I know some of them wish to see me happier, wish me can become more confident of myself... But my mood really not that good to control my own feeling.

I think the main reason is my weight stop going down. Still remains at 70kg for almost 2months. GOSH... That really make me loose a lot of confident. So this reason causes a lot of sub-reasons which makes me even more EMO!!!

Since my weight lagging at 70kg, I gotto work even harder to deal with my weight. So...

• Tuesday I will go to GYM at Suntec with out fail;
• Wednesday will have GYM and starlight YOGA at VIVO;
• Thursday will back to Suntec for spinning class and GYM;
• Sunday morning will go swimming at Haugang.
• Every night sleep at 2am, weak up at 7.30am in the day.
• Every day work from 9am to 6pm.
• I just take a simple breakfast, a normal lunch and diet at night... mean no dinner...

So everyday I m just making myself tired and tired. And this also effecting my mood. But stupid Shiuji still planning to work even harder. From next week onwards, there will be the following add-on to my schedule....

• Every friday, hot YOGA at Pacific Plaza
• Every saturday morning, swimming at Haugang

As I working so hard to transform myself, there are some people still wanna talk something to hurt me. ya... To some people, hurting them is some kind of motivation; but to a person tired like me, normally my mood will absorb everything I listen, so in the end, it will make me thing doing all the above are stupid, sometime make me wanna give up. This is the second sub-reason that make me EMO!!!

The third reason is the stupid weather here. Is hot until it make me really bikcik... This type of hot in Singapore is totally different from the hot in other country. Kill me...

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Shiuji get depressed easily because Shiuji is stupid.... Just fit to the title of this song~ "Because I'm Stupid!!" by SS-501. This is the ending song for "Boys over Flowers花样男子"




Although Shiuji is so negative and EMO recently. But a lot of friends still encouraging me. Really thanks to all of them. So there are still something that motivating Shiuji to gambate.

And recently, all my colleagues and friends realised that I slim down a lot. A secondary school friend who I have never see him for a year, we was on webcam some day and he get a shock when he saw me slim down so much.

All my colleagues are the people who see me everyday, and they can realised my obvious changes, that really prove that my hardwork are not wasted. But they are asking me to stop slimming down, and the reason is I look better when I was chubby. WTF...

Even the YOGA instructor also agreed that my current weight is just right and what I need now is tonning up my body and make it firm. I accept the second statement, but I really don't think my weight is at the right level. My current BMI (body Mass Index) is 24, which is at the boundry of normal BMI, which mean if my weight slightly increase by 0.1kg, I will become overweight. That consider normal? Bullshit...

But to prove my appreciation to all my supporting friends, Shiuji will work harder and keep myself healthy and happy. I will work harder to keep my mood at perfect condition. I apologized to someone who got irritated by me for the past week, but Shiuji really doesn't mean to depress myself to irritate you. Especially to JunJun, Sen Dear, Willy Gor, Kevin dear, Ron dear...

P.S. Thanks to all of you who reading my blog as well. I feel better after I wrote all this out...

What So Fun with TFK in Sonar Room?

Get lost SLUT!!!

28th April 2009 ~ As usual I went to GYM today (tuesday). Something make me curious. Anyone can answer for me!!!

After GYM I went to steam bath, a hot uncle (beginning of 30, quite good looking, normal build) came in, but I didnt even look at him, I continue lying there to enjoy my steam bath. After 15mins, I went to Sonar, I was happy I was alone there.

Just the moment I sit down, the lengcai uncle came in. He sit on the higher seat, his eyeswas keep looking at me, I just pretend I dont know. Suddenly he went for a 5seconds shower, then he came in again, but this time his towel was loose. When he went back to his seat, he took of his towel and show off his standing hard cock (very big), his eye still continue on me... =.="' I really dont know what should I do...

He see me no action, he went out for another 5seconds shower, then come back to his seat again. I see him still looking at me, then I walked over to asked see weather did he needs any help or not. But he refused... (Malu la saya!!!) Then he went for another 5seconds shower again. =.="'

This time he came back, he start masturbate, he was so horny there, his eye was on me, keep on moaning there with low volume. What for? After about 4~5mins, he cum on his belly.

WAH!!! LIVE SHOW!!!

What this people thinking? Whats the fun with masturbate in the Sonar Room? Go home la...

He still dare to look at me when he leave!!! =.=" angry already....

Beauty and The Beast!!! ~ Part A

Beauty And The Beast - Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson

Now is 1.17am at Singapore here. I wanna write something about this: -


Beauty and The Beast!!!

But this is really too late... Sleeping time now... Gotto sleep early for slimming purpose, my lengcai face and hair... OK... I am in a practice to sleep early, so if you see me online after 12.30am, please chance me to sleep as hard as you can....

Please....
Please come again tomorrow for my Beauty and the Beast ~ PartB. I really don't have the time to write now... hehe... I just feel happy, as I bought a 31" pent from SUB, hard to believe I can fit into 31" SUB pent, as everybody knows, SUB cutting is super small. 3months before, 34" still tight for me.... haha....

P.S. Enjoy this lovely song brought to you by Shiuji Roy.

Good night...

Break The Rule!!!

Ayumi - Rule

This is the latest single by Ayumi Hamasaki


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*I don't need the Rules
Decided by someone else
Because we are the Rules
I can't concede about it

"Where on earth is hope in the age like this?"
"Can we believe in what we can't see nor touch?"
I just nod silently and close my eyes calmly

Because I can feel clearly now that we are certainly connected

* (repeat)

"This world isn't yet so bad, though cloudy everywhere"
"However foggy, I have enough confidence in trying to trust someone"
I take a deep breath and shout proudly

Because I was taught by you on that day that everything happens necessarily, not casually

** I don't want to be imposed
The same old stupid Rules
Let's start first, you and me
By destroying the Rules

Since the moment my strength turned into tenderness
And my tenderness turned into strength
I have nothing to fear any more
I'm feeling so

* (repeat)

** (repeat)

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Just wanna share the meaning of this song, because it mean what I really feel in the previous post. BREAK THE RULE... And the most important things to share here is....

In this MV got many Topless guy..... LOL

Good Things Come After Bad Things!!!

Rule - Ayumi Hamasaki
(Ayumi New Single) ~ The feel of this song is exactly what I feel now
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Last week - 13March2009 (Friday), I took a cab to Goldmile because I was going back to Ipoh that night. But when my cousin and I were in the cab, I accidentally left my phone pouch on the seat, so I realised my phone pouch was gone when we were waiting the bus at Goldmile. That time I was really scared, because inside my phone pouch there are master card, ATM card and a high value Eastlink card (bus and MRT card). I really dont know what to do. Luckily my phone is with me. So I called home to asked for my cousin to help, then my uncle told me to make a report at Confort (Taxi company). So I did it immediately.

When I get onto the bus, I tried to think of somebody to help or someone who can calm me down. So I called to my sister (my god sister in office). She knows me a lot, he can simply make me smile with some stupid joke, then she told me call to POSB to terminate both card. And I did it immediately. Finally, my nervous has stop. I really hope I can tell somebody, esspecially if I have a boyfriend to tell. But I dont, so I called to James and told him what had happen. After telling out my feeling, I felt even more better. So that I could relax myself in Ipoh.

Many good things happen after this incident.

When I reached my grandma house after my breakfast with my parents. My grandma immediately bring out a piece of newspaper. lol... My photo was printed on the newspaper. I got full distinction for my LCCI higher diploma. My parents and grandma were so happy for that. Then my mom promised me to buy me a labtop for that. LOL...

Can you see where am I?
That photo was took in beginning of 2007,
so fat right?

So in the following days, we went to many places to choose for labtop. Those salesmens spent so many time to promote their labtop to me. But when come to the time for me to make decision on which to buy, and the time when I finally make up my mind. Sony VAIO Outlet come to my view. We went in to have a look (I just planned to have a look). But the salesmen spent less then 10mins, I changed my mind to buy a VAIO CS26G. WTH... People spent so many time on me, giving me so many promotion, and I dont even bother; But this Sony didn't give any free gift, and I accept it without thinking. In fact, I like sony a lot... Their design are a lot nicer.

VAIO CS26G/R

Finally I have my own labtop

The 3rd day in Ipoh, I have a date with JunJun. We didn't do anything, please don't think too much. We just have lunch, watch movie and shopping, then I sent him home safely. I didn't do anything to him ooo... Shiuji is good guy....^^ And I just find out, JunJun also like to watch GateKeeper (anyone can find me this anime, I wanna watch again)

After sending JunJun home, I went to my primary school gathering at OldTown. We were so noisy there, we just keep on talking and have a lot of fun. And finally I told 1 of my friend that I am GAY. @.@"' Because she has curious about that for sometimes (we are sister la.. please). Our gathering ends around 12am (Because the shop ganna close le...)

The last day in Malaysia. I went to have lunch with my collage's friend. But I saw someone very familiar. He is a very cute guy, super cute. Last time we studied in the same collage but different class. He is so adorable, so I always look at him from far, whenever I saw him appeared, my eyes will never leave him, and I wish to know him long time ago. Now just only I know my friend knew him, because they used to work in the same company. haha... Finally I got the chance to know him. Now I know his name, just waiting my friend to give me his friendster. LOL... Let you guys see his photo, NEXT TIME...

P.S. Everytime when I come back from Ipoh. I will sure fall sick. This time I can't escape from the trent. T.T... I need more rest now... So share more after you all comment on this post...

HELP!!! I AM STILL SICK!!!

And a question regarding to the title of this post:

If "Good Thing" really come after "Bad Thing" and take "Having a hubby" is a "Good Thing".
What "Bad Thing" do I have to face to have a hubby?

Come to me now.... HAHHAA

Sad Day! Sad Week!

ROMANTIC - SHINEE

I feel so sad recently, many things affecting my mood, I m going to list them out 1 by 1 here today. But first of all, the one that I angry the most is： All of you don't ever comment on my post. I saw I got so many reader, but how many comment do I received in the previous post? 4...


TOO MUCH!! TOO MUCH!!!


My office came a new manager. I should be happy that my new manager is a guy, but not all guy in this world are handsome. MY MANAGER IS A 30+ CHUBBY UNCLE. Since he don't has neither a wife, nor a girl friend, a bit worried he is PLU now. (Pray god, please don't, in my PLU-list, PLU are handsome...).

Once he came to our company, I start to have more and more job. i) I have to help him to order a new labtop, check for prices and model, all settle by me; ii) My audit job have to be reviewed by him, always ask me to change this change that, all my job cost blow up because of him, and my job never end because of him. You can't see me on msn recently... Blame him...

But he don't dare to scold me or else. I m fully protected sometimes. Maybe I m the youngest, or I m too cute to others. All my colleagues like me so much. If he choose to be my enemy? He will become whole company enemy. LOL

Office side is just some small cases. The one make me sad is... The stupid Chunchiro.com has become a pay side because of don't which idiot went to complain them. And my first birthday from Yannic Gor, which is a movie site to watch Formula17 on chunchiro.com. Now I can't watch it anymore.. T.T That was my most precious present, how dare they do so. That really make me angry and curse that idiot for the whole night.

And something make me cry again. I saw that 25years old again. 2weeks ago, tuesday night, I met him on the bus81 at Kovan stop; Last week, tuesday night, I didn't see him there anymore, then I thought the previous time I saw him was just a luck; this week, tuesday night, I met him at Pasir Ris interchange, that mean he purposely go home in different way to hide from me. I look at him photo saved in my phone and I sleep. I just can control my feeling, and burst with tears. How much I miss him! He don't dare to look at me when he saw me, he didn't even raise his head when I alight.

WHY!!!

Not Feeling Good!!!

Want me to be happy? Comment more... I like comment... That really make me happy...

P.S. Color of the word, will represent the level of pain in my heart.

Legend: -
Level 1 - White
Level 2 - Yellow
Level 3 - Peach
Level 4 - Orange
Level 5 - Red