Luna Maze

Restart a new blog!

2010-08-07T16:00:00.001+08:00

I really have no idea how to continue this blog, too many things to write, don't know where should I start from.

I will only come here, while I m emo, so if I continue writing here would means I will continue to be emo. So why don't I start a new blog, to let myself to have a new start.

Too many things happened within the past 2 months.

i. I lost my iPhone 2 weeks ago.

ii. Then now my lappy got problem, it auto shut down after using for 10mins +.

iii. A month ago, I attached with a guy after knowing him less then 1 week, and broke up after 3days.

Shiuji has been weaken after all these things, wish may have a peace day soon. Wish my dreams may come true.

Sweet Dream

2010-06-14T16:12:00.003+08:00

During the past weekend, I went PLAY on Saturday night, and went ZIRCA on Sunday Superstar Night.

I went PLAY on Saturday night is to accompany my friend. Poor him just break off with his 1 month long distance boy friend from KL. The whole night my friend was hug by guys around the whole night, and I dancing alone and drinking alone. I was not really happy that night.

On Sunday night, my other friend called me to join him and his friend at ZIRCA. That was really a good chance for me to try once, since normally I will have to work on Monday so I usually don't club on Sunday night and currently I m on study leave for my exam on Wednesday.

Before the night really start, I stood at a side to look for friends who also clubbing tonight with my iPhone Apps ~ Grindr. Here I found this Korean mix Chinese guy, we both were chatting and trying to meet someway in the club since we ever see each other before, but we loose connection once we start dancing.

I knew some friends from my friend "Dennis" 's friend, and I accidentally met my friend "Joseph" and knew many friends "KimChi, Johnny, Joanne..." from him. Dancing with them are so fun, and I can't stop recall the moment we dance together. They are friendly and crazy.

Around 3am, we went to Macdonald for some food before we go home. At McDonald, few of us with iPhone start Grinding and I found some of my friends also in the club, and one "the boy I can't forget for the past few months" even sitting opposite of me having his meal with his friend after club. And the "Korean mix chinese" guy also very near me, so we continue to look for each other. But we still failed to meet up although he is also in McDonald.

We continue message on Grindr once I reach home, but now only he asked me, "you really don't know who am I? I am Kimchi". My emotion was, "WHAT!!! I was dancing with you through out the whole night?" LOL

Both night at the clubs, the DJs play Sweet Dream ~ Beyonce, that moment always make me missing someone. I really wish we could back to the origin, and start our net-friendship all over again. MAY I?

I am Shiuji, 21, single and available, from Ipoh, but now staying in Singapore. Nice to meet you.

End of Hala!!!

2010-06-07T23:15:00.001+08:00

We were such a good "net friend", we were such a good "sharing buddy", we were such a good "web-cam friend". (I really didn't think much and not dare to think much, as I thought I were not qualified to compete with him)

But something happen month ago, that end everything between us (I don't know what actually had happened). All the above became my memory (but not yours).

Months ago, I used to wait every night to come faster, for me to see this good friend, to chat with this good friend, to dance with this good friend "of mine" (but I am not good friend of yours)

Bright smiling face is your trade mark, smile until two eyes left with two straight line, and a moon shape teeth. I will always remember, as I might not see that again.

Single Lady, Listen, Halo, Sweet dream - Beyonce. You brought her into my life, and I will cherish this bright lady as if you are her. (As I see her, like I see you)

You have your friends, I were only a net friend of yours, but you are a great friend of mine. Sorry to leave you at the moment you need lots of friend around, but I have no choice, as things happened has push us further, and I really have no ability to make you happy (I tried, but thats really not my skill) wish someone are doing that. So your life don't need me around.

2 drops of tears represent our 2 months of friendship, although is short, but forever memory for me (not for you).'

I will always keep myself update with your news, but you might not see mine. Like people on the floor watching Beyonce on the stage (I know you, but you won't know me)

这一刻开始，我祝你永远幸福哦！
不要不开心！笑得灿烂的才是你！
让我叫你多最后一次^^

DanDan

P.S. I dare to write this post, as I think you will not read, wish you will forget me. (I really mean "forget") Any people know him, don't lead him here... NEVER!!!

Just friend!!!

2010-06-07T16:33:00.004+08:00

Although we did what normal couple d0, or maybe more then what normal couple do. But...

We are just friend.

You told me:

Let's remain as good friends and stop going further. We will feel better in this kind of relationship. Because if we attach, and later if we break off, it will be hard for us to remain as friends.

I will accept whatever you say, I will not say I wait you, I will remain in our current relationship and do whatever we usually do. But if one day (don't know this day will really come or not), if anybody want me, I will stop everything between us, and make you back to my normal good friend.

First Time In Public!!

2010-06-02T01:00:00.002+08:00

This is our first time doing this in public, and I will memorize it here, by location, time, situation and details.

Although, we had done more then this simple thing before tonight, but only this simple thing happen tonight brought me to feel that you like me.

Anyone would think that this simple thing is usually the beginning. But to us, our beginning might be start with what normally people do at the later part. I believe this situation is normal for gay, but I will still take today as our beginning.

Location: AMK Cathay theater 3, seat B11-12 (couple seat)
Movie: Prince of Persia
Date: 1 June 2010
Time: 8.45pm ~ 11.45pm

Although your palm is sweating, but I enjoy my palm is being wet by your sweat.
Although we are doing this with covered, but I love the moment we doing it.

Later I message you to ask whether you like it or not. You just keep laughing and answer:

B - "(laughing) Why you ask this silly question? I don't like it as my palm was sweat."

S - "Is that means you like it if your palm is not sweat?"

B - "(laughing) Silly."

Thanks for not releasing my hand while we are holding them like Prince of Persia holding Princess's hand in the movie.

Looking Back

2010-05-11T23:00:00.005+08:00

11 May 2010 Tuesday, after work, I went to Tampines to meet up my friends for dinner and collect photos we took at Genting from them.

After we exchange photos with each other, we browse through our old photos I have in my lappy's photo album. They keep laughing non-stop, not because of any joker photo or funny memory. They just laughing at me, the "me" in the past.

Example

Took in 2008 (guest where am I?)

Laugh all you can!!!

Conclusion...........

Shiuji in 2010

Heart Lost at the Journey?

2010-05-11T01:00:00.005+08:00

10 May 2010 Monday. First day back from Genting, gotto start a whole new busy week, and it is usually tough for a normal human to go back to their normal mode after a rest, especially after a tour.

Don't know where my heart go, left at Genting? Probably my heart like the cool air over there. But when talk about heart, it makes me re-call something. Last mid-autumn festival, I sent all my heart to someone. Maybe thats the reason I can't find my heart now... Probably!!!..LOL

I wanna re-make a new heart, let myself love someone with whole of the new heart. The original heart? That person who received my hearts said he ate all of them. So my hearts are now at Pinang Inda-Water (a place where Malaysia accumulate shit)

Time to sleep!!!

Going Genting~~

2010-05-07T20:49:00.002+08:00

Today I am going to take 11.30pm bus to Genting Highland.

Few months ago, I asked my date to go with me, but we fight after a month. Now thinking, how nice if I could go travel with my lover.

I always have this dream, which is traveling with lover. Sit side to side on the bus / plane, check in hotel together, sleep on the same bed in the hotel room, walking on the street in a foreign place, shopping together, eating same bowl of dessert, feeding me with the food he order. Doing whatever a couple do.

Now no more!!!

This trip I m going with my collage friends in Ipoh. 2 pairs and 3 singles; 4 girls, 3 guys; 6 normal, 1 gay.

By right, if I didn't break with my ex-date, the trip should be: 3pairs, 2 singles; 4 girls, 4 guys; 6 normal, 2 gays.

Restart!!!

2010-05-07T00:24:00.006+08:00

My last post here in Luna Maze was 11 February 2010. Life still the same as year ago, no one willing to walk into my heart, still single and available. Within these days, there were some guys past by, but never stay.
Don't wish to be single: seeing others sticking together with his partner, shopping, have meal and movie together; listening others talk about their partner, how cute their partner, what their partner doing and how their partner character. For me in the past, I will turn emo once I turn back.
But now I share their happiness, wish they would happy forever. After turning back, I no longer bringing sadness along, but walk away with smile.

Shiuji ~ The White Devil

Now is like a restart for me, and my blog. Luna Maze no longer a place to seek for sweet happiness, dolphin no longer living here. Now White Devil rules the blog, creating happiness for his own land, instead of waiting happiness drop down from the sky.

LISTEN, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find MY OWN

(Listen by Beyonce)

Missing Vampire ~ Day 1

2010-02-11T08:52:00.000+08:00

7th February 2010 Sunday, reach home around 7.30am with some "yau zha gui" at the near by coffee shop. After a short Facebook in the morning, I have my breakfast with my auntie, uncle and their funny auntie friends.

They are hilarious, we never stop laughing the whole day, because they stay at my house whole day to help my auntie cook vegetarian food for praying during lunar new year. And I do my favourite 雞絲卷.

After busying for whole day, I date friends at evening for dinner and shop at Tempines. When come to this male apparel boutique, I saw this fake 2 piece shirt, how much I wish to buy it for my vampire, I know it suit him very well.

After shopping, I chose to take bus instead of train, because bus got longer walking distance, so that I could call my vampire before he sleep. But in the conversation, he didn't sounds like he want to have any relationship, maybe his ex hurt him before. Their relationship just hold for 1 month, although that was year ago, but enough to make him lose confidence.

So I ll remain in our current condition. As a friend.

Ps. Not going to tell what happen during day2 ~ day5 "date of this post"... But everything going well.

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Big Spending Starting

2010-02-06T16:00:00.001+08:00

Traditionally, there is this trend that every Chinese will at least buy a set of new clothes for Chinese New Year. So it is normal for us to spend slightly higher before New Year.

Some people not just only have new clothes, they will also buy new bag, wallet, handphone, necklace, new hair style, new look.... To make sure everything of his/her are whole new. "change your boy friend also, so that I could hook one up during this time ~ devil"

But this year I spent slightly more than the past 20 years. "How much is my 'slightly' cover?" haha.. Nevermind, my 'slightly' can't even get a luxury bag.

The coming two weeks before new year, I will control my food consumption, do more exercise, fight for a hotter body, and to save some money from there. Lol.. To recover my pain.

But I haven't finish buying new cloth. How?

Who wanna buy for me.

My Current Feeling ~ SHINee

2010-01-31T23:00:00.001+08:00

31st January 2010 Sunday, 11.14am, listening to jojo~SHINee, on my way to LotOne to see SHINee.

Before this morning, I still full of excitment, because I could catch this precious time to see them in real. Weather to get their autograph or not isn't my issue, so long as I could see their live performance.

This morning I received a call from my friend to informed me that he can't go with me, and for that I would have to go alone. By right that wouldn't effect my mood, but don't know why my mood is falling down, feeling lonely again.

My auntie and even my colleagues would say I always got a lot of friends to date with, but why today I can't think of anyone to go with me. I was being silly this morning by keep on thinking negatively.

But seeing a cute baby in front of me now, I understand something, the world still so beautiful, no point to being sad because of this tiny little thing. Happy and go wherever I like, do whatever I want.

Mood is very flexible, you can make it turn to the positive side, or curve to the negetive side, as you like. So being happy or sad are all depends on your choice.

Don't always make yourself sad. Love yourself.

Daily Waiting!!!

2010-01-10T22:58:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow Monday again. Really don't like this day, but this is LIFE.

First day of every month will start waiting last day of the month for SALARY.

Monday will start waiting Friday for WEEKEND.

Every working day 9am will start waiting 6pm for OFF WORK.

Since life is so boring, create something wonderful for yourself.

What should I create tomorrow to make the whole week special? LOL

Fighto OHHH....

Against the Original Rule

2010-01-06T00:35:00.001+08:00

This question happened to asked by some of my plu friends around me, and I do have my own opinion on this issue.

"Should I turn from 0 to 1 to get a lover?" (or the other way)

My question back, "Is that so important whether your boyfriend is a 0 or 1?"

Let's explain, 1 is the guy who fuck (under the definition of gay sex), so called holding the male position when come to sex; 0 is the guy who being fucked, so called holding the female position (with a cock, but not ah gua, 0 still a men).

In my opinion,

So long as both are loving each other, what's the matter of being a 0 or 1. If it is true love, you shall willing to satisfy your partner, so sometime just be the one he like.

Sex "Original Rule" is guy fucking girl, popularized speaking, "guy is to attach with girl". But being a GAY, we are already going against the original rule, if we still concern with being a 0 or 1, what's the difference with sticking to the rule.

People always claim that love and sex are not equal. If you really don't care, what for choosing 1 or 0. Get who you love without caring what will happen on the bed in the future, gay don't create new rule, gay just against the original rule.

Or some might think, 1 take care of 0, e.g. guys have to take care of girls. Love don't differentiate who to take care of who, love will make you to take care of each other. When you really love one person, you shall willing to take care of him in every single second. I feel it before, do ya?

Prove it love can change. As gay exist is because love ignored gender.

Wish 有情人，终成眷属！

Happy New Year 2010

2010-01-02T15:25:00.002+08:00

31 December 2009, last day of 2009. This is my first time experience to join this new year's count down plus fireworks. My friends and I came to this river side behind Fullerton Hotel. We walk all the way from Marina Square to this place, when we passing through the under ground pass near Esplanade, there were so many people squeezing in from so many entrances to this only exit which brought us to Marina.

Back view of Fullerton Hotel

After walking for about 10~20mins, we found this place where we can sit on the smooth grass land, and we could catch nice view of fireworks later. Then 5 of us sit in a circle, bring out all our presents for gift exchange (belated Christmas) and a box of cakes from Secret Receipt, because they want to celebrate belated birthday for me as I didn't blow candle that night (I still can't escape from being 1 year older).

While they sing birthday song for me, luckily not much people join, really paiseh. A cute boy sitting next to us realised it and wish me Happy Birthday, his smile was so cute and I got electric shock, later he asked his friend to play Happy Birthday song with his guitar and he sing it for me. How sweet.

My friends first time seeing my shy face while I met cuttie, and keep on laughing at me. They asked me whether do I wanna take photo with the cute guy or not, I didn't answer and keep on pulling the grass on the ground. Actually I didn't realise this minor action of myself, but they saw it. So my best friend went to asked that guy to take photos for us and with us, so that I could have a photo of him for memory. ^^

Taking photo with cute boy!!!

Then we exchange our gift immediately before new year comes. I was supprise that the one who give me my present is my best friend, and this is the first doll I have in my life time. I love it alot and I named him XXX (guess...).

Thanks... This is Shiuji and XXX (guess...)

Before fireworks start, the cuttie went off after saying good bye to us. (T.T please don't go...) This year fireworks were so nice, maybe I myself like fireworks a lot, and I am watching with my best friends and so many nice smiling face people around, makes me fell for this multicolored splendor. But while watching this fireworks, I will still think of someone, how nice if I could watch this with someone. Don't have to hold hand, it will still be nice even he is around watching the same view with me. (just thinking...^^)

Happy New Year 2010

This is a whole new year, wish I could leave all the unhappy things with 2009, brought all the happy things over to 2010. Any New Year resolution? As follows: -

1) I can have more confidence on myself, no matter is on my appearance, study, love, friendship, career or anything, because for the past 2009, I felt myself always on the negetive side of all these.

2) Bring myself up to another level on my career, no matter is changing to another career line, or keep in my current career line. So long as there is growing.

3) Have a nicer, healthy and seducing body, don't know for what. Just feeling cool to have it.

4) Level on my singing skill, as I really love singing. If can I will brave up and go for Cafe audition. (Hard to reach that stage, but will try)

5) Brave up on everything, singing, knowing new friends, talking, and whatever, I really braveless to do anything. Train my brave.

6) Have a good result on my study. Pass every subject that I am going to sit in this year, or in previous year 2009.

7) Strengthen my English Language, don't really feels like having much inprovement. Must have improvement on listening, speaking and writting in English.

8) Love? Don't know. No point to think so much. Come whenever you want.

9) Make more new friends... I like to have many friends, but maybe this is really not my talent on making friend.

10) Write good blog. I will try not to use market English (broken English), try to strengthen my writing skill and grammer in this way.

Actually too many things wish to achieve. SO..... Just do it....

Happy New Year.....

Happy Birthday Shiuji 09

2010-01-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

People says, 21 years old is a birthday that shows one has grown up to be an adult. He/She is now has legal capacity to sign legal contract with others in their own name. So normally people will celebrate it in a slightly special way.

This year I m finally 21, I never feel excited of being an adult, I wish I always young. But still have to celebrate right? Otherwise gotto wait another year for this special day of myself.

Original plan is to held a pajamas party, bikini party, beach party or even simple BBQ. But time don't allow, I have no time to held such a grand party, and my finance will be very tight after such a party.

In the night before my birthday, I was doing nothing at home, once the time touch 12, I received message on msn from JunJun. He don't want to bother me for the past half an hour was to give me this supprise. How sweet! But Make me recalled back last year, same time.

In that night, many of us were in msn chat room waiting my birthday to come, all bloggers were helping me count down in the chat room, some even purposely sleep late for this. They are Kevin, Yannick, Willy?, JunJun, Jon, Eric, Vern?, Chu? Who else I missed. Haha... (I will check old post to see)

This year do not have any count down, just JunJun still accompanying me here and Sen (sadly your line not good at that moment) also.

On the actual day 29th Dec 2009, 4of my colleagues and 4 of my Ipoh friends and I went for K buffet. I sang a lot tonight, took many silly photos and received crazy presents ~ red underwear from Levi's.

My Ipoh Friends ~ LHJ

Shiuji singing

Wearing it... OMG...

Although the celebration was simple, but fun. How much I wish that I have a numbers of friends to attend my party so that I could held a big party.

Levi's underwear, Bag, angpao are my Birthday presents...

Thank You!!! Friends....

Tasty X'mas

2009-12-30T21:30:00.001+08:00

Chinese says, life consists of 4major tastes, i.e. sweet, sour, bitter and spicy. But I feel all four in this Christmas. Let's group all the things happened in these few days.

Sweet
Not because I got a boy friend or what. Sweet is because I get to meet Yannick Gor, Eric, Xiaoyu, from KL, James, Roy (not me), Aaron from Singapore, Derrick from JB, Qing from China, and ...(update later) from Hong Kong. How sweet, I met 6 new friends. Although there is unhappy things within, but still the dating is full of happiness and joy.

Got my birthday present in advance from my colleagues. Is a leather bag, I like it actually, but my friend said the design too over, if for him, he won't dare to carry it.

Sour
Many sour things actually, everybody should know I m big vinegar tang (means easy to get jealous). What make me so jealous?
i) James and Eric - This sweet couple, go here and there together in these few days, although is distance love, but I think there should be full of honey along the way from KL to S'pore.

ii) Eric and Yannick - Although I m Yannick so called "didi", but he never treat me so, perhaps he got more things to tell Eric then to me. Nevermind, nice that you can talk so well with Eric.

iii) Derrick - Just a 16y.o. boy already so wanted. Make sounds old. What was I when I 16? Still a big fat boy doing nothing in the school.

Enough of sour things, still got a lot of minor things, as I really not a simple vinegar tang.

Bitter
Bitter thing don't stay long in my mind. I try not to remember them. But bitter things are:
i) Abandoned by XiaoYu and Derrick after clubbing.
ii) My best friends' case (tell more next time)
iii) wish not come true (I wish to get a boyfriend before 21 birthday)
.... Forget

Spicy
Haha. I like spicy things. They are equivalent to hot things. I dance in club is true, no guy approach is not 100% true. LOL. I did dance with guys, and in the club I really saw a lot of hotties and cuties. These really make me hot. And, when I came home early in the morning, I saw this hot guy in the bus who I usually see him in the night. (I think he went club also, good boy, go home early) haha.

Minor thing like got a iron during my office gift exchange? Err.. Strange right? But iron is hot anyway, when you on it.

Conclusion:
I starting to love Christmas, as we can gather with friends, giving and receiving gifts.

Hate x'mas as I don't have a lover to celebrate. That's pain by seeing others loving so sweet under those beautiful x'mas decorations.

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T05:28:00.001+08:00

25th December 2009, Christmas, 4 days to my birthday. But this morning, brought me a bad start for my 21 years old.

Last night, after going Orchard to have a short walk to feel the Christmas and meet some friends. We straight to a famous gay club in Singapore ~ PLAY. There were 3 of us when we go.

The night was great. Many hot guys there. Hotties and cutties really flooding the dancing floor. Ending part of the night, DJ even play those my favourite songs. Eg. Ring Ding Dong of SHINee, Abracadabra of brown eye girls, Nobody of wonder girls, Bad Romance of Lady Gaga....

But majority of the night I was dancing alone. No guy approaching me, 1 of the 16 y.o. friend was hugged by many guys in the night, in the end follow that guy home. Another friend also left with another guy. Left with lonely guy here, sitting at the road side, waiting the time for MRT to re-open.

Although I m so unhappy, but still I have to pretend nothing and wish them good luck. God never fair.

Now, I see many cars stopping in front of me, but I just pretend I see nothing, and continue typing this. I m not slut. Just a ordinary guy who need a guy. Not pervert who drive around to catch lonely guys. 5.26am. Another car.

(update on 27th December 2009)
What actually I unhappy for? I don't know. Being abandon? No sex? No guy? Being sad for all these are stupid... So no need to be unhappy... ^^

iPhone 3GS 16GB

2009-12-12T15:25:00.001+08:00

Finally.... I got my iPhone.... wuahahahah....

11 December 2009 (Thursday), early in the morning, my aunt and I went to Tempines Mall~M1, we reach M1 around 11am, and they just opened. But the queue was already quite long. After queuing for 1hour, finally we got the ticket and we sit inside to wait for another 1 hour.

In the previous night, I already heard from the News that some people had queue up for more then 5hours, but still can't get in to get the ticket. And today is just the 2nd day where M1 and Starhub release their iPhone. So should be quite many people also. Wondering why those people so free, today just Thursday, and not public holiday also. Why are there so free here to queue up for the iPhone?

Around 1pm+, finally our turn to be served by the counter. My cousin and I both choose iPhone 3GS 16GB White with signing M1 iPlan Lite for 2years. And now we gotto queue again for payment, luckily my younger cousin was already queuing there in advance for us, so we got advantage by bringing more people here. haha...

People in Singapore really love to queue, most of them said is because of their kiashu culture. But why don't they queue up while waiting for MRT?

How others come out from the door?

I don't know how to list out the good of iPhone. For entertainment, you can put in many songs and videos, you even can download games you want from iStore, some is even free. With iPlan, you can even online wherever you want. For business, you can check stock value immediately, check for foreign currencies exchange rate. Good quality, good graphic, good appearance... But every application and files gotto connect through iTunes.

iPhone 3GS White

I got some problem with my iTunes. My playlist in my library and all the application I downloaded for my iPhone will disappeared after I shut down my computer. Although iPhone allow me to retrieve those paid application from my iPhone. But they won't allow me to retrieve my song playlist... SHIT

HELP!!!

But I still love my iPhone!!! ^^

Nervous Morning!!!

2009-12-01T22:22:00.003+08:00

1st December 2009 Tuesday. Feel sleepy through out the whole morning. Suddenly, I received a sms from a "new friend". Just name him Mr.D.

Mr.D is from KL, but started to work in Singapore since 2~3months ago. Although we have each other in msn, but never chat until I saw him at True Fitness Suntec month ago. Just I saw him, he didn't recognize me, maybe I look really different between picture and real me. To me, he is A class lengcai, at the same rank with Yannick gor, Daren.....

So his message is to date me to Kbox after work. Everyone in Luna Maze will know, Shiuji will feel shy even if a stranger lengcai look at him. Not to mention stranger, there is past case, when Shiuji date Yannick gor at KL, before Yannick arrive, I actually went to toilet for more then 5 times to check myself at the mirror. Can see how nervous am I during that time.

Same thing happen again, I can't push away his offer, as I scared he think I am proud, so I accepted. The whole morning, I was so nervous, I can't control my emotion, I scared but still feel happy. I told my best friend in my office, and she also laugh at me. Haiz...

I agree, I am really lag of self confidence. But it has been improved a lot. But around 5pm, I received his text to cancel our appointment, as he need to work OT. Immediately, I felt relieve yet disappointed.

So conclusion, I wish to go, but scared; I want to make more new friends, but shy! All because I don't have enough self confidence and not brave enough.

No balls....

Air Steward!!!

2009-11-30T22:07:00.004+08:00

Recently I always get to read this air steward blogger's blog. He always upload a lot of photos that he took when he reach certain country. And now he bring me up with a crazy thinking....

Be an air steward!!!

Crazy!!!

You can't make it Shiuji! You fatty!

OK! By fact...

Age ~ 21... still young...
Height ~ 171cm... Should be ok right? Too tall is hard for him to move in the plane.
Weight ~ 68kg... Not fat... but also not slim enough...
Look ~ Not ugly.. Won't scared people away, some girls would say cute also... hehe
Skin type ~ Not sensitive skin, consider smooth...
Personality ~ Friend around me quite like me. But stranger will think other way.
Language ~ Can speak in Chinese, Cantonese, Hokkien, Kakka, Malay, English (when talking to people I know, I will use pasar English, without my control; when talking to stranger, my English will turn to proper English with nice accents or otherwise, eat screw.

One important point... I no balls...

Anything else? haiz... Whatever, just take it as a dream tonight!!!

Headache!!

Give me your opinion!

Wanna share this 2 messages which I just copy and paste from a forum that I just read.

M - hey,i am Malaysian.. i be willing to be a air stewardness.. but i am not idea what can i do next step to got a opportunity to be a air stewardness...

C - Improve your English for your next step... No, I'm not trying to be mean.

No Good Time!

2009-11-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Exam coming soon, I have been studying my law whenever I am free and available to study. Now I come to this part, "No good consideration!" But I m not contracted into any promises or obligation. But just having "No Good Time".

Trying my very best to make Mr.R my good friend, but friendship doesn't seems to be work with just one party exercising it. Anyway since letting go is a must, without breaking our friendship, strengthen the friendship is the best way. And I m proud of myself that I m doing a good job with letting go this person. Now I m AVAILABLE!

Many things happen recently, my sister in my office break off with her 4~5-years relationship boyfriend, another good friend of mine in office break off with her 2years relationship boyfriend also, I think another female colleague of mine sitting behind me also... I saw her cried heavily last 2 weeks, should be break off with her 3months relationship boy friend. And all happen in the same week. Hard to find good and LOYALTY guy!

This song is nice. "坏人" 你是个好人，也是个坏人 You are a good guy, also a bad guy...

Recently I wish to make a friendship with a guy. I stay Pasir Ris (1st MRT station from east), he stay Tempines (2nd MRT station from east). We both work at Shaw Tower, Beach Road, my office at 24th floor, his at 28th floor. For the past 2months, almost everyday, I can see him from Tempines station to Shaw Tower, whole journey is about 35mins.

But recently I don't see him at the MRT door where I always meet him. But I do see him when we come to the main road which head to our office building. Which means he change place to stand and his way to office. Hidding?

16th Nov 2009 Monday, during lunch time, my colleagues and I waiting for lift and 24th floor lobby, once the door open, I saw him in the lift and I whisper to my best friend and my sister that he is the one. haha... Then after work, when I leaving my office, I met him again in the lift. Is that fate? Today, is the first time we go home together, he walk very fast, but we still get to board at the same train but next door. Where I just can see him from far.

He look stress everytime while he see me. That makes me not dare to look at him at all. I wish I could talk to him. But I m not brave enough to do so. I can see, he is not gay, just a normal straight guy, but I just wish to know who is he, and wish to be his friend. Just as simple as that. (Maybe he has Mr.R feature, but my best friend and my sister disagree)

有缘无分吧！

P.S. Many people bless me to have my true love before my 21st Birthday. Impossible to come true I think... haha..

One Hand Won't Sound!!!

2009-11-10T00:30:00.001+08:00

Told my mom that I will go KL again after I my friend's wedding dinner in Ipoh on 23rd November 2009. I got scolded immediately on the phone.

Mom: (Angry) You always go KL for what? KL is a dangerous...

Shiuji: I go meet up my friend. As promised long time ago.

Mom: Friend again. You always friends, I let you go Singapore is to study, but you always go here and there... Why don't you spend your time concentrate on study. Go KL for what?

Shiuji: As I said, I will go meet some of my friends.

Mom: Friends? Why don't they go Singapore to find you? Why must you go KL? Ya, when you go KL, they will treat you as friend. You try the other way round, ask them to go Singapore to find you, see they still friend or not? One hand won't sound.

Shiuji: Ok! I will think about it...

Mom: If you don't want to study, you better come back to Ipoh to take over your father's factory.

I know my mom just worried about me. But her statement not totally wrong. Not only friendship, even to lover, relative, colleagues, even customers and suppliers on business, both parties need to work it out, and push together. As you always try to build up relationship with the other party, but he never want to bother, then this relationship never be built.

Like to stand a wall, both side need to push together to make the wall stand straight and stable. But if just one side are pushing, the wall won't be stable on fall to the other side.

But giving up a friendship is not the characteristic of Shiuji. I always try to build up a friendship with others, although they never have much response, but I won't try to give up. I will stand until the day you accept to defense at the other side of the wall.

P.S. Wish to have true friends. Although friend don't stand forever! But I believe it will works if we defense together...

Fattening Day!

2009-11-08T11:50:00.001+08:00

7th Nov 2009 Saturday, we celebrate our friend's birthday at East Coast Park. But this celebration bring us a lot of FAT...

We met at Parkway Parade to shop for some snack that we can eat at the beach later. We bought Potato Chips, Twistle, Cheese Roller.... All SNACK.... Then we made our way to East Coast Park and chose a shop to rent bicycle. We cycle all the way to a food court to buy our dinner, the girls bought BBQ fish, oyster egg and fried mee kue teo... FAT....

Oyster Egg

BBQ fish

Fried Mee

Then we found a place where we can sit to have our dinner. The food are delicious, but we just can't stop complaining about the fat that we have taken in. What to do? Friend's birthday!!!

After finished our food in 30mins, we clean up the place and cycled to a place where many people fishing over there. The wind is so soft here, we can see sunset clearly at this location, people fishing and enjoying themselve with their friends and family.

Sunset

Fishing location at East Coast

East Coast is really a where I wish to come every week. The place is nice, environment is nice, food okok... And.... haha... There are a lot of hot guys around. There always many people playing at the beach, cycling, skating, jogging, even fishing. And many hot guys even topless... LOL.. I find skating is cool, and I want to learning skating during my next visit to East Coast.

Around 8pm, we went back to Parkway Parade and we have our desert at Swensen. Having fattening food again. Which is ice cream. We ordered Earthquake, a bowl of 8scoops ice-cream with top. And a Swensen ice-cream cake. FATTT

Prawn and Fruit Salad

Earthquake

Ice Cream Cake

P.S. Going to GYM later. Keep fat away from me....^^

Truth behind Words!

2009-11-02T18:14:00.004+08:00

White Devil! Revive!

I read these from a chinese blog authored by my blogger friend. And hope to share these here, because I feel that all the truth behind those simple message are quite true.

(Translation might not be 100% accurate due to my poor english)

1. 当你收到“你干嘛呢？”实际上是想说“我想你了”。
1. When you receive "What are you doing?". But actually he is trying to say "I miss you!"

2. 当你收到“呵呵”，多是没笑或者傻笑。
2. When you receive "hehe". Majority means he is not smiling or giggle.

3. 但如果是“哈哈”或者“嘿嘿”，这时你打过去一定是在笑。
3. But if you receive "haha" or "heihei", sure one is laughing when he type.
Not really...

4. 说你“傻瓜”或者“笨蛋”其实是关心你，担心你，希望你照顾好自己。
4. When he say "silly" or "stupid". Actually he is caring and worrying about you, hope you can take care yourself.
Sometime...

5. 如果是问句结束，其实是希望能和你多聊一会儿。
5. If sentence end with question mark, actually he wish to chat more with you.

6. “哦”多半是在敷衍。
6. If he answer "oh". Majority means he is just perfunctory entertaining you.

7. 但如果是“知道啦”，“收到”，“遵命”之类的则表示比较在意。
7. But if he answer "I know le", "get it", "yes sir" and so on, which mean he care with it.

8. 有时劝你忙自己的，其实他是口是心非。
8. Sometime when he asking you to busy your work don't bother him, actually he do not mean it.
Silly

9. 把他的傻事，丢面的或失落的事告诉你，是希望你安慰他，开导他，甚至骂骂他。
9. Telling you all the silly things, shameful things that he did, actually he hope you to comfort him, or even scold him.

10. 主动发信息给你，说明你在他心目中有一定的分量，一般人不喜欢和不在意的人罗嗦。
10. Text you actively, means you are important to him, normally people won't talk much to people that they don't care.

11. 如果给你起外号，是希望你可以记住他多一点。
11. If he give you a nickname, means he hope you remember him.

12. “我刚到”，“我已经到家咯”说明进屋第一个想到的是你。
12. "I just reach", "I reach home le" shows that once he reach home, the first in his mind is you.

13. “你到家了就告诉我一声”，“你到家了没啊？”意思是我要你一定平安了，我不许你有事。
13. "Tell me when you reach home", "Have you reach home?" means he want you to be safe, don't allow you get hurt.

14. 有时不会那么巧就发错给你，可能是他想发给你又实在又没东西发，虽然这样很愚蠢。
14. There will never be an action called accidentally sent, maybe he wish to send something to you but dont know what to say. Although that is silly.

15. 收到“转发2人会幸福哦”，是他觉得这条短信很有意思，但是不忍心让你转发给10人，就偷偷把10改成了2。
15. Change to "forward to 2persons will get happiness oo", means he felt that this message is meaningful, but don't want you waste money to send to 10 persons, so he change to 2 instead of 10.

16. 凡是那种“不转发就会不幸”咒语性质的，他不是没有收到过，但是绝不会转发给你.
16. Those message says "if don't forward you will get curse.", it doesn't mean he won't receive this kind of message if he don't send you, just he will never forward to you.

17. 有一阵你没有收到过他的短信，但不表示他草稿箱里没有。
17. If he didn't text you for sometime, it doesn't means his draft box is empty.

18. 如果可能，他晚上不关机就是因为你。
18. If possible, he don't shut down the phone at night all because of you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

To those who long time didn't see me...
I'm no longer hunger for becoming silver dolphin!
I m White Devil! Light in darkness, Darkness in light!

I really did all the silly things above before. Although is meaningless now. Thats good thing for me, at least shows to myself that, I m not kidding at that moment.

I m happy now, because I know the truth. Although it had came to an end.

Ending!!!

2009-10-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

As time goes by, I had blog for 12months. Many things happen in this 12months, people join and leave. There are happiness, sadness, joy and fun. I make many friends here and felt that the relationship will hold long, but actually I was wrong.

Luna Maze was build from a quiet land to a joyful place, and finally it comes to a dead land with full of memory. I won't terminate this place as I have many memory here, I miss every moment we are together, I miss everyone I met here. Although there are many sad memory, but all these memory no matter good or bad will forever in my heart until I die.

I will still continue Luna Maze although it sounds meaningless to me now. For me now, it seems like a listed dead pit. But I won't give up this place, everything will go in the way as it should be. I need to find a new piece of land to grow my city again. Or should I not...

Torro card says I m growing too fast, until people can't catch up with me. Seems like the truth is quite similar, but not in this way. It should be: -
1) People are growing, where I am not. Thats why everything I do seems so childish to others.
or
2) I am growing fast, but in the wrong way. Thats why people don't like how I am now.

Sometime I hope to start a new place to blog. There are too many things I can't tell. Because I always scared things I say will hurt someone. I always wish to help, wish to refresh someone, but my action can't presents my intention to them, and always had a negetive effect.

I dissapointed so many people. People see I am a happy guy at first, like angel. But maybe I am devil inside. I don't know. I not sure. But at least it seems to be so. I wish someone could help to kill the devil inside, but I know no one will. Logical thinking, who will kind enough to walk close to a devil when you know he is a devil in the first place, the first sense will always: away from him.

I hurt the second person now, or maybe more back there. Devil really kill in the silent way. I am not asking for forgiveness again. I know I should not be forgave. But I will try not to let the devil kill next person. I will let angel rules Luna Maze.

I hereby promise to Luna Maze.

Moon Cake Festival!!!

2009-10-04T19:45:00.001+08:00

For the past years, while I still staying in Ipoh, Malaysia, whenever come to mooncake festival, I will have to follow my mom to shopping centre to shop for moon cakes. She need to buy a lot of moon cakes every year, because she has to give to my father company's customers, my grandparents, all my uncles and aunties. Then on Moon Cake Festival day, we will eat mooncake together, play candles and lantern with brothers and sisters.

My Moon cake festival programs changed after I come to Singapore. I no longer buying moon cake outside, eventhough there selling moon cakes everywhere even at the neigbour bread shop. We bake moon cake at home. ^^ I recalled last year moon cake festival, I missed ShangHai mooncake in Malaysia so much, so my aunt asked me to search for the recipe online and she will bake it for me. And she really did it very well.

27th September 2009 Sunday, my uncle, auntie and I were together baking mooncake at home. The process is really fun, especially working together with my uncle, he always create a lot of funny things for us to laugh. below are some photos to share... ^^

Salty egg yuk

Baking Shanghai mooncake

ShangHai Moon cake!!!

Special ShangHai mooncake!!! Specially bigger...

Normal traditional mooncake

3rd October 2009 Saturday, mooncake festival, went to date Eric BKT for shopping at Orchard Road. Actually we are not really shopping, but we are just keep on talking and talking, totally no direction with where to walk, I m talkative anyway. And we scan handsome guy together. LOL.

Around 5pm, we met James and Colin to go for dinner and movie at Cineleisure. They chose to watch Phobia2. T.T damn scary... But watching at Cineleisure better, because at least the whole cinema are full of people... LOL

4th October 2009 Sunday, we bake moon cake at home again, although moon cake festival already past, but these moon cakes are to bring back to Malaysia for our relative. And I bake something really special today, but I know this person might read this post, so better don't post the photos first. haha...

Sadly, the result of the moon cakes weren't as good as last week. But we find out what is our mistake, next year we will do it better.

I just found out, Malaysia need one to have a permit to shows that you are allow to accept food from oversea, then just people from oversea can send food to you. Isn't that sounds stupid? What for? Defense from pork product? Stupid la...

Self made salty egg... we using chicken egg instead of duck's

Steamed salty egg yuk, the previous week we baked them

Before baking

ShangHai Mooncake "greentea"

P.S. Recently really busy. But I will blog once a week. ^^ Gambate Shiuji

Clubbing Night ~ Zouk~

2009-09-27T21:15:00.001+08:00

I have not been going to club for almost half a year, and I really miss them so much. I like clubbing, but most of my friends don't club, thats why no one is going with me. But finally... hehehe

25th Sept 2009 (Friday), in the afternoon, 3 of my colleagues of I went to Jack's Place Restaurant for lunch, and it is totally free for me. haha.. Because 2 of them are going to pay for 2 of us, so we ordered NZ Rebeye steak with brown sauce. Yummy.

NZ Rebeye Steak with brown sause Jack's Place Steak House

In the office, I received a box of gift from my colleague, because she give birth a baby boy. GongxiGongxi... After work, I quickly rush home to change for clubbing.

Baby gift box

Before I leave my home around 10pm. I msn Mr.R, wanna show him how I wear tonight, but sadly he didn't reply. At the same time, I saw Derek Hyung online, so I on my webcam to show him. But he said the shirt too small for me... damn it.

This how I wear

On the way, I felt myself super unlucky tonight. (1) At home, while changing my earing, the hole bleed, ~maybe the new earing still too big for me~; (2) I wear my Budha bracer, but it break once I wear ~maybe too long didn't wear~; (3) When bus came, I realised I left my bus card at home ~gotto go home get it~; (4) Wait for a cab at Tiong Bahru central for more then 20mins, ~maybe too late, it was 11.00pm~. Damn unlucky, scared something might happen.*SCARED*

Once I reach the enterance of Zouk. My friend came out to bring me in. And his friend already inside, we were just waiting for the arival of the soul person ~ DJ. He super late, he finally appeared after 12am. Then we went down to the dance floor to dance. My friend~Wayne is a well known lala zai, he can dance quite well, so he attracted those girls around, although he is not lengcai (he won't read my blog). LOL.

Luckily I wear white pent to Zouk, because the lighting will make white thing bright up

Ya... Zouk is a straight club. I saw many hot guy, cute guy, sweet guy around, but most of them hugging girls... Wanna cry.... Or most of them also with their group of friends, I also wish to have a group of clubbing kaki (not sitting there to drink, but dance and shout with us...haha)... But still, I saw quite some gay guys around. hehe...

Wayne's colleague, Pretty right...

I starting to love Zouk, there are 3 grounds (i.e. Disco, pub, R&B.) Don't know how to describe, Disco is DJ music, R&B is R&B music obviously, both can shout and dance, R&B even can sing with the song if you know (No worried, those songs are very famous, poker face, dance.... so on). The difference is people, R&B got more kids, lala zai; disco... not that lala... LOL...

Clubbing is fun, esspecially is dance dance dance. I wish they will play Abracadebra~Brown eyed girls... Then we can shake our ass to knock people ass. haha...

Before leaving

Luckily nothing bad happen after that, we left there around 3.45am, because Zouk close at 4am. And we take cab home, but something really bad happen here once I reach home. My uncle thought I will reach home after he wake up, so he lock the door before he went to sleep...

HELP!!! but luckily, my uncle just back to bed after he went to toilet, so he heard I opening the gate... In other word, the toilet save me in. LOL..

Lets enjoy how Brown eyed girls shake their ass~ I can shake like this....

Testing Testing 1,2,3.

2009-09-26T20:22:00.001+08:00

Surprisingly, the number of my blog's followers is increasing, wondering how many follower are seriously reading my blog.

Message to follower:
Kindly comment something here shows that you are active in Luna Maze. LOL

Coming soon: -
Clubbing night ~ Zouk

Love this song play in club... but in club is English version...

Public Holiday ~No Holiday~

2009-09-22T00:28:00.000+08:00

(This song is very sweet.)

By right, 20th September 2009 (Sunday) is Hari Raya Puasa, Malay New Year. 21st Sept 2009 (Monday) is a replacement of public holiday of Malay New Year. So it is a good chance for me to go clubbing at Zirca, because every Sunday is their special night ~ Super Star. It means this is a good chance for me to dance as crazy as I like, shake until I forget him, find someone to replace HIM in my brain. Since he won't want me...

BUT

My stupid collage have lesson in this morning, because they know we don't work this day. Damn it. Thats pull me back from clubbing. Make me woke up early on this public holiday morning, rushing to school and hurt my finger while changing my earing. Damn pain.

I wear blue big V-neck T, black jeans, white sport shoe with black vest and old style sunglass. When I walk on the MRT from one end to another. So many people staired at me. Sure because too gay... Damn it...

On my way, I sms Sen Dear to check for me the flight time for today from Singapore to Penang. Because I wanna wish him good luck before he leave Singapore. Silly. But now I know he reach Penang le... hehe..

Don't want to write too much le. Wanna sleep le... Good night ~@~

自虐 ~Masochistic~

2009-09-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

Masochistic (Self-defeating) Personality Disorder is a pervasive pattern of self-defeating behavior, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts. The person may often avoid or undermine pleasurable experiences, be drawn to situations or relationships in which he or she will suffer, and prevent others from helping him or her, as indicated by at least five of the following:

Chooses people and situations that lead to disappointment, failure, or mistreatment even when better options are clearly available.
Rejects or renders ineffective the attempts of others to help him of her.
Following positive personal events (e.g., new achievement), responds with depression, guilt, or a behavior that produces pain ( e.g., an accident).
Incites angry or rejecting responses from others and then feels hurt, defeated, or humiliated (e.g., makes fun of spouse in public, provoking an angry retort, then feels devastated)
Rejects opportunities for pleasure, or is reluctant to acknowledge enjoying himself or herself (despite having adequate social skills and the capacity for pleasure).
Fails to accomplish tasks crucial to his or her personal objectives despite demonstrated ability to do so, (e.g., helps fellow students write papers , but is unable to write his or her own).
Is uninterested in or rejects people who consistently treat him or her well, (e.g., is not attracted to caring sexual partners).
Engages in excessive self-sacrifice that is unsolicited by the intended recipients of the sacrifice;
The behaviors do not occur exclusively in response to, or in anticipation of , being physically, sexually, or psychologically abused.
The behaviors do not occur only when the person is depressed.
The behaviors do not occur exclusively in response to, or in anticipation of , being physically, sexually, or psychologically abused.

P.S. I think I'm facing this. Loving the feeling of loving him, loving the feeling of loving someone don't love me to hurt myself. I'm finished. But I will be fine. Although today is really hurt. When I got the news that you were here from others, my day went up side down, luckily my friends with me, I didn't burst at the moment.

During my lonely journey back home, I slightly burst in tears. I know what I think is wrong, what I doing is totally against fate. But I can't control myself at that moment, I keep on looking around hope to see him once, I closed my eyes on the train just to stop thinking, but when come to a station, my mind praying automatically to see him while I open my eyes. Although I know it never happen. 我真的神经病了！

You should not send me this that day (4 September 2009)

Dream!!!

2009-09-13T22:05:00.003+08:00

I have been waiting for so long to at least see of him once in my dream. Finally, my small little wish come true in this night.

12th Sept 2009 Saturday, recently I have been training myself to sleep early, main reason is for my face. LOL... Recently my face has becoming worse and worse, according to beautician's statement, it was due to congested, the only thing I can do is sleep early. Therefore, I will probably sleep around 12am (Maximum I can do, because by the time I reach home from class or gym, that will be 11+pm)

This night I went to bed around 12.15am, I can't sleep actually, because I used to sleep very late for more then half year, and my cousin still playing his computer game in the room. I keep turning around on my bed, and "he" start attacking my brain. Whenever I have nothing to do in physical, I will start thinking of "him". Why? Don't know thinking of how long, I fall asleep.

I can't really remember what's the dream actually about, I just remember my family and I went to a strange water theme park in maybe Malaysia, because I saw many Malaysian. While I were wondering around inside, I saw Mr.R was with his friends there also, that was my first time seeing him in real. I wanna make him realise me, I did many stupid things to make him see me. Sadly he didn't.

Then I told my sister that Mr.R is my friend.

(Very blur part, don't know what happen here...)

I came back to my home, then my sister told me: "Your friend Mr.R will stay over tonight, he is now upstair." Then I faster rush upstair. The room's light was off, but i can see his eye still open, then I immediately hide behind of the wall to cool down myself. Suddenly the light on, I tried to look into the room.

That wasn't Mr.R. My sister brought back the wrong person. By the way, why she brought Mr.R back our house? I don't know.

(Blur again...)

Mr.R and I finally meet and we are back to the water theme park. We chat a lot and play together. (Can't remember detail...haha)

And I slightly remember Kevin, Daren and.... (Forget who is the third person), they exceeds in my dream, but forget what actually happen.

Silly right. Anyway, just a dream, never come true.

Ok... Time to prepare to sleep. Good night.

Thank you!!!

2009-09-07T02:20:00.001+08:00

I don't know what had happen. Sounds like this come too sudden. Anyway, I know you won't read this post. Even if you come, you will leave immediately I think.

4th Sept 2009, that night I did something really wrong. As you told me you want his msn before, I thought you wanna know him, so I brought him into our conversation. But I didn't expect such an ending. I tried my very best to explain to both of parties. One party told me: "is OK! never mind" So I didn't care much. And the other party promise me won't tell people who is it, but he just shout to express his feeling on facebook. What had happen after this or behind of me? I don't know.

6th Sept 2009, but this morning, Kevin asked me: "He angry with you?" But I still blur don't know what had happen. Until the afternoon, I found myself tagged on his photo, and when I wanna comment on it, then just only I realized I had been removed from his friend list. Then I go back to check my blogger.com, and I find out 1 follower stop following me and his blog posts were totally gone from my daskboard.

This is too sudden. My brain is empty. I hope Mr.R is around, but he is not, anyway, he don't care. Thanks for yanny gor, chat to me on the phone; Zac gor, chat to me on msn; Sen, trying to understand; 翔少，trying to make me happy.........

I just feel kinda wastage. 10months of friendship ended due to a 20mins msn, which less than 30sentences. For me, one seconds friend, forever friend. But I can't do anything. To him, I am totally not trust worthy I think. (I think is to everyone...) Every relationship ended normally are because of lack of trust. For this as well.

I don't expect you to forgive me. But thanks for being my gor for the past 10months. I am really proud of having you as my gor. (You won't accept it anymore...) I am using the perfume you recommended to me, I always think of you when I use. Sorry.. Maybe this is really my fault. Please don't forgive me, but forget me. Don't remember people hurt you before. I won't appear in front of you anymore, I don't want you get hurt anymore.

Please accept my last sentence: Thank you, Gor...

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Sunset ~ Love is All ~

2009-08-29T02:10:00.000+08:00

I saw Ayumi's latest single selling in the CD shop, stood there for a while to play the CD with the player at the side. Unexpectedly I fall for this song.

28th Aug 2009, while I was working in the office, I downloaded this song, and enjoying it. Zac にさん came to chat with me on MSN. He is my youngest gorgor, except Willy and Yanny (This two gor are my most precious gor, cannot make them angry). LOL. As Zac gor also like japanese song and korean song. I shared this song to him. Gladly he love it...

THANKS GOR!!!

My gor very lengcai de... haha... While saw him on webcam, my sliver drip until all my documents on my table wet, and I have to print them all again. haha...

Lets enjoy the song together.... (Close your eye...)

Sunset~Love is All~ Ayumi Hamasaki

Come closer to me
Try to trust me more

You are laughing innocently
I adore your smile

But I know that tears were shining
On your cheeks until a while ago

I don't say easily, "Show me your true colors"
Or something like that
But I'm confident about accepting you
Whatever color I may see in you

* I want to send bigger love to you
In a louder voice
I want to get to your heart

** If I shout bigger love
In a louder voice
I wonder if it will reach you just a little

*** It's even better to take a roundabout way
I know we'll be able to understand each other

(In a louder voice)
(Bigger love)
(In a louder voice)
(Bigger love)

I can almost imagine for some reason
What you want to say

I just have a mind to face you
But actually I'm running away, don't you think so?

If I said I was not afraid
I'd be lying, to be honest
But I'm all prepared
All taken together

Hey, come closer to me
Try to trust me more
Do you hear the heartbeat
In my trembling chest?

Come closer to me
I want you to listen carefully in your heart
And try to trust me more

The time of confirming each other's mind is over now
I know we are thinking of each other

We are not at all perfect
Because we are human
But I think it's OK
Because I love such a point

(In a louder voice)
(Bigger love)
(In a louder voice)
(Bigger love)

Shiuji really SUKEBE!!!

2009-08-28T02:00:00.002+08:00

Half year plus ago, Jon did something fantastic. Which is giving Shiuji the name ~ Sukebe (Japanese, means pervert)

On 27th Aug 2009, after work. I went to GYM as usual, because I have my spin class every Thursday. Today instructor isn't Sun (the instructor that asked me to get a boy friend bring me to Mount Everest. Last week she told us, she was lesbian last time, no wonder she knows I m gay).

Back to the story.

Today instructor is a guy, huge, quite a boring class. Luckily he is just to replace for this week, as Sun is on leave. But his class suffer more then Sun's class, means burn more fat. Actually this also not the main point. LOL

After my workout and all that. I went to steam bath, sauna and shower. Once I reach the changing room, I saw this hot guy just wearing jeans standing in front of the mirror (he was in the spin class with me just now). First word come out from my mouth was... 美味い

The one I saw is a lot more handsome!

When come into the sauna room, inside just got 1 guy, towel on his back, his hard cock was hanging there (he doing his own business inside, LOL...) Once I walk in, he stopped, and tried to cover his hard cock with his hand. Seeing him so shy, I just leave him alone in the sauna and went to shower. Nothing happen because not my cup of tea. LOL

After shower, while I changing in front of my locker. A handsome huge also just finish shower and changing in front of me (Just saw underwear only, not totally naked). His body is a big V shape. And I said, 美味い silently.

Bigger size then this and not this young. I think he around 26!

While I drying my hair in front of the mirror, another hot guy come into my view. Body very nice, not consider as huge. Once look on his body, I said 美味い...

Let me make a conclusion for all the above. 美味い is delicious in Japanese. When see handsome normally people says lengcai, hot, handsome and so on. But my first sentense to say was delicious.

I really wanna scold this Shiuji....

SUKEBE....

P.S. My cousin next to me while doing this post, so can't choose suitable picture.

Kidding Me!!!

2009-08-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

A few things funny today 26th Aug 2009!

i) Good morning, Baby!

Ok! I used to wish HIM good morning every morning once I login MSN, consider my daily now. I will feel nervous if I can't see him on msn... haha...

Brush teeth with him every morning!!! LOL

As usual, I log on to MSN messenger, and open his window.

Shiuji: Good morning, dear!

(everyday I call him differently, I used sweet heart, 威伦王子，荣恩王子，RXX Gor,... and so on)

Mr.R: Good morning, baby!

This is the first time he use this kind of sweet noun on me. T.T so touching... He make me feel fresh for the whole day, normally I would feel sleepy after lunch and during class, but today I didn't feel sleepy... haha...

I know he is not from bottom of his heart, he is just treating me as his dee dee... ^^

ii) You Look So Young Now!

I just finished my lunch and going back to my office. At the lift lobby, I met my boss. He look at me for a second, turn over and told me this...

Mr. Sotong: You look so young now!

Walao... I really wanna answer him this，"You mean I look old last time?" But I didn't. I give him face... That mean I improve a lot. Thats good actually.

Fried sotong (similar to my boss name, when we talking bad about him, we use sotong...LOL)

iii) You really look like 阮经天！

After lunch, back to office, restart my laptop, holding a slice of papaya, and walk towards my colleagues. When I stood in front of both of them, suddenly they turn over to me from their monitors, and look at me for a few second. One of them suddenly said,

Ah Je (阿姐) : He really got a bit look like 阮经天！
Agnes： I told ya... He really got 阮经天 look...

阮经天 (famous Taiwan actor)

? Similar to me? Blind =.="
(I won't compare my photo here, just obvious make me look ugly)

while he is still a model!!!

No wonder Agnes always tease me by calling me 硬明天！

阮经天 pronouns similar as 软(soft)今天(today)

So she purposely make it opposite, thats why become 硬(hard)明天(tomorrow)...

let me has such a hot body first!!!

P.S. Want laugh then laugh, I know all of you won't agree! Myself feel kidding also! They are blind!!!
LOL

Net Friends VS Real Friends

2009-08-22T02:09:00.002+08:00

Suddenly curious with this title.

Net Friends VS Real Friends

Isn't it net friends could hardly become real friends?

I don't know what about others, but it really applied to me. Sometimes really feel lonely. Take my account in Facebook.com as an example.

Majority of my post hardly receive more then 5comments. And the 5 are normally some close friend. (Where the others in my friend list? they never bother others?) But some of those handsome can easily get more then 20comments in less then 5mins with just a simple post (ie. boring...).

Comments being ignored. Don't know is it normal people won't reply comments, or just not going to reply mind. Maybe you would say I think too much. But somehow they really do that really obvious. Many comments I made on some people's post have actually being ignored by that owner. Many people also commented on that particular post, but the owner replied to all of them, except me.

Net friends never last look. This two days your might have 1000topics to talk with, but come to the third day, your might back to stranger again. (Just example, normally wont that short...)

Anyway, as a friend, I will still care of you no matter you are my net friend or real friend. But you appreciate my kindness or not is your own business. I can't force anyone to be my friend.

Just understand my theory.

Once friend, Friend FOREVER!!!

Don't want to talk so much. Feeling being ignored after reading so many blogs.

青春Amigo - 修二与彰

Suddenly feeling like sharing this song. Amigo is means FRIEND! This was my favorite song during my secondary school time. Because since there I was being abandoned by most of them. I'm just wanted to be involve in formal things. Like doing homework, copy in the exam and projects. Other then that like sports (because I m fat?), outing, movie, shopping. They never inform me.

Maybe kinda scared of lonely. I always tried make myself stronger. So during collage time, I had actually became the most active person in the class. But what outing I organized will actually not much of supporter, in the end, due to short of people, the outing canceled. But if others organize something, I sure will attend (issit too 38), and we actually have fun with it. Maybe I m the joker for them.

There are some happy memory; there are some sad memory. Now all become my nice memory. I don't have a wonderful secondary school life. Thats why I love watching school base drama. And I found this song ~ 青春Amigo. (issit consider a replacement?)

Coming Back Soon!!!

2009-08-19T02:20:00.000+08:00

Sorry to all my blog's readers, I had been absent from blogging for sometime. As in July is the most busy month for audit firm. So really no time to blog. Due to working until late night, my face is so ugly now... Pimples, pimples, spots, spots....

Since your miss me so much, I attach herewith my latest photo, hope your dream of me tonight.

who have my facebook or msn might have seen this already!!!

BUT!!! something private here!!!

wanna see? bleah....
(I know your are not interested also...T.T)

Here I annouce, Shiuji is coming back soooooon!!!

Shinee - Countdown

1

2!

3!!

4!!!

But before reading my latest news... copy, comment and answer the followings: -

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In your eyes, how much (in %) you rate me?

Cute: %
Pretty: %
Handsome: %
Cool: %
Adorable: %
Tiny: %
Active: %
Childish: %
Mature: %
Royal: %
Sexy: %
Hot: %
Idiot: %
Boring: %
Care: %
Simple: %
Mantal problem: %
Useless: %

(answer in your own way. Be creative...)

Busy Month!!!

2009-07-22T01:20:00.002+08:00

Now is middle of July, and July is the most busy month for me, because I need to rush for audit reports for filling to government. What to do? I am the only one who doing it in my company.

I were employed into this company as a typist at start, by right I should just concentrate typing my report. But slowly I get involved in audit job, where I have to assist those auditors to do some easy job for them.

As I have the most computer knowledge among my colleagues, my boss starting to rely all the IT problems to me (He will have to pay the technician S$90+ each time the technician come). Whenever there is IT problems, which include buying computer, choosing photocopier machine, settle computer problem, repair office network, buying computer software..... In other word, I am so called the IT Manager (fake one).

Since I know more and more about audit, my boss starting to assign audit job to me. Now I doing audit job independently. Not only doing my own jobs, at the same time, I will still have to assist those senior to do some big job.

In my company, I am the only audit report e-filling typist, person incharge of IT of the company, audit assistant.... I have to do my own report typing jobs for all the clients in my company, I have to do my own audit jobs for a few companies, and all my colleagues just keep on calling...

roy

Roy

RoY

ROY

RRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOOYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

I really want to change my name from now. Whenever they have computer problems, first thing in their mind would be... RRROOOYYYY!!!

Although I did so much, but still I left something super important here. Which is....

MY PAY REMAIN!!!

Since the day I get confirmed one year ago until now. My salary remained.

JongHyun: Dear, is ok... Hubby is here... I will take care of you for the rest of your life!!!

FINE!!! No comment... LCCI higher distinction scorer.... So what!!!... My pay was according to secondary school GCE O level certificate, as he told me my LCCI actual result were not released back to the day I came to interview 2years ago.

FINE!!! Continue to work!!!

My face is getting worse and I don't have time to rest to heal my face...

JongHyun: Come Dear, hubby give you a kiss to heal you!!! Muarksss....

Hubby HELP!!!
P.S. Where is my actual hubby?

Gee ~ Boy Generation "SHINEE + 2PM + Super Junior"

Come!!! Lets enjoy this song... Although have SHINEE, but my hubby bling bling Jonghyun not inside, just my foxy mighty Key inside.... haha.... The original singer of this "GEE" is girl generation... But the boys are so cute (except the super sissy yellow pents guy).

Key: Can see me? The prettiest boy inside!!!

Am I look so gay?

2009-07-18T20:15:00.001+08:00

9th July, I went to Gym for spinning class.

During half way of the class, the instructor (Sun, female, nearly 30 I think, married, "nyonya"means lady who mix of Malay and Chinese, a special race in Malaysia, male are called "baba").

She was telling us to imagine we are cycling up to a hill, like going up to Mount Everest, we should feel the stress or something (Thats not important). Then she turn her head to me to asked me. (she dare to ask me, because I attend her class every week)

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Sun: Have you been to Mount Everest before?

Shiuji: No! (Shaking my head, breathing stressfully)

Sun: I think you should go once. Maybe ask someone bring you go. A boy friend better! Ask him bring you go...

Shiuji: (Stun!!!)

Sun: Is ok la... You can one.. So many out there!!!

Shiuji: =.="'

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Do I really look so gay? I don't know... (Maybe) Last night, I met my ex-boyfriend's ex boyfriend, in other words, our third party.

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Fox: You look so different now.

Shiuji: How was I last time?

Fox: You quite straight looking, can't really see you are gay, but now you look so obvious.

Shiuji: So? I also don't know why I changed, and don't know since when I changed. Maybe since the day I break with your ex.

Fox: (silent)

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I really want to say. My change was indirectly causes by you, if not because of you, I won't change so much. Thank you. haha...

Whatever, from today onwards, I want to act more straight. Gambate!!!

Let Dance!!!

Shinee's AMIGO VS Lady GAGA

Watch this video, damn cool... Is Shinee (my hubby JongHyun's group)'s AMIGO mix with Lady gaga. The creator is super creative, this not his only creation.

ACT STRAIGHT!!! GAY!!! (telling myself)

Finally my pray comes true!!!

2009-07-16T02:15:00.001+08:00

8th July (Wednesday), I started my first F7 class (Financial Reporting) for 2009 2nd semester. I was late that day, almost no seat left, but luckily I still got myself a comfortable seat. Actually I hate studying theory, but the first chapter of this subject surely will be theory, what stupid introduction, make me fishing inside the class for almost 30mins. Damn boring.

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Back to 1year ago, I came to SAA (located at Aljunied, Singapore) 3times a week, attend classes of F1, F2, and F3. And I will always met one guy on train from City Hall to Aljunied, then all the way to the collage.

Don't know why, I got strong feeling with this person. Everytime we will take the same train to school although we don't work in the same place (I work at Bugis, he work at Orchard, but we always met each other at City Hall). We don't even studied in the same class. I wish to know him, I always wish to turn myself over to introduce myself while he is behind of me. But when the day I told myself to brave up. I started never see him again.

After that day, whenever I take train, I will always stand at the same door, wait I could see him again. Esspecially when come to Aljunied, the first step I step out from the train, the feeling he following behind of me will become stronger and stronger. I miss the feeling when he was behind of me. When walking down the stair, I will look back, because he used to follow very close behind of me.

Since the day I never see him again, I always pray just to see him once more....

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Back to the class, when the lecturer anounched to break for 10mins, some people starting to stand up to go out have a walk. Then a guy from the back come into my view. For that moment, my brain was blank, I totally can't believe my eye. At that moment, he just look so familiar to me, look like someone I miss for so long. Then immediately, I sms yanny gor and called to my sister. I was so excited.

My pray comes true. Not just see him once more, but I can see him every wednesday until end of October. He doesn't seems like remember me, maybe 1 year ago he never realise my existance, everything just my imagination I think. (I really think too much) This time he exist not to satisfy my pray, is to ask me stop dreaming.

THANK YOU!!!

Ipoh Trip "26th June ~ 27th June" Part 2

2009-07-12T20:30:00.002+08:00

26th June, I slept around 1am, wake up at 6am, prepare myself nicely, then rush to my friend's home at 7.20am and reach by 8am (so far... I drive really fast that day). Then suddenly the bridegroom gave a few stack of angpao. I was stun. And he continued, you are the best man (伴郎). LOL... (what to do, I am the most lengcai one among his friend...LOL)

The bridegroom

The brothers

This was my first time being a best man. Being a best man is nothing good,

i) assistant of the bridegroom
ii) collect angpao, but the angpao not yours
iii) act of one of the brothers, gotto suffer all the stupid things created by the sisters
iv) gotto stand all the way, (other brothers were sitting outside)
v) Camera men, partial (because I have a camera, while I free, sure taking picture la...)

Torturing by the sisters of the bride (wearing paper underwear)

The middle is me.

Finally got the bride

Praying

But it is a nice experience, anyway, I received bigger angpao from the bridegroom after that, although not really big. haha...

Both of them were too hungry... haha... (curi makan in the car)

After sending the bride back to the bridegroom's house. They took some sweet photos in their room. hehe

So sweet!!!

Kissing!!! (I know this is private, but I took it with my camera...haha)

Present card from my friend and I to the couple

(Can see my name stated on the girl next to the bride? Is 肥龙 fat dragon...=.="')

Then I visited to my college I studied to collect my LCCI Certificate and to my high school. All the lecturers and teachers were so impressed that I slim down so much, as last time I was super fat. Their first action are almost the same, they will first look from your top to your bottom then back to the top, then drop their jaw. haha..

I wear this to the dinner!!!

In the night, I went to the wedding dinner. My dressing was totally outstanding that night. Because people normally don't wear like this to wedding dinner, or should I say no guys wear like this in Malaysia and Singapore? Agree.

Matching in!!! haha

First Dish!!!

Taking photo with my friend!!!

The guy behind join us unknowingly...

Troublemaker Shiuji!!!

Something I very regret until now. Actually I was asked to sing on stage that night, but I m too scared, so in the end, we have a group singing on the stage. I regret I didn't cherish the chance to show my talent on stage. SHIT

Singing on the stage!!!

My best friend! but now got girl friend!!! Don't care Shiuji already!!!

My so called mother in my class last time!!!

On 27th June, the last day in Ipoh. I went to met JunJun, my cute didi at Ipoh Parade again. But this time he brought a friend along, and both of them are so tall and slim, maybe 180+cm, 48+kg? (too slim). How about me? 171cm 68kg. shorter, heavier. GOD!!!

Going to meet JunJun!!!

Traffic jam!!! On the way to meet JunJun!!!

Taking photo in OldTown, is he cute? (actually the main target is the lengcai behind)

After having lunch at Old Town, we went to walk around, scan lengcai then we went Kbox. Don't know what they think about my voice, but I was touched while I saw JunJun tears that day, because I gotto leave to Singapore again. (He is silly and cute)

His friend ~ YiZai taking photo for us!! (Before I leave!!! Rush bus!!!)

Jun holding camera!!!

P.S I miss Ipoh so much again!!!

Ipoh Trip "23rd June ~ 25th June" Part 1

2009-07-06T01:05:00.003+08:00

From 23rd June 2009 to 27th June 2009, I spent my relaxing but busy time in Ipoh. My schedule already full before I was actually reached Ipoh. WTH... My primary school friends already reminding me about the gathering in the night while I still on the train back to Ipoh. They are so efficient.

Once I reached Ipoh station, I already saw my father's big tummy. haha. He got a shock while he saw his son, so lengcai already. But what he said was, bin jor sang gor lui gam! (looks like a girl already!!!) WTH, I was wearing the artist's cap, a vents from ZARA with black Tshirt, black long pents and white shoe. That was very handsome, not pretty please.

Took this photo on the car while my father went to buy something!!!

Then he brought me to see my grandma and grandpa, both of them were smiling so bright while they saw me, and my grandma said, gam gou gam sau jor geh!!! (why so tall so slim already?) Then she asked me to drink soup. (I miss her ABC soup which is a soup with sweet potato, carrot and tomato)

After that I straight back to my home, my aunt, uncle and my mom were baking New Year biscuit (pineapple cookies, peanut cookies, greenbean cookies... total 6types)... This is not new year yet please. My mom was stun while she saw me, she finally believed I m really can fit into 30" pents. LOL

After chating with them for sometimes, I went prepare myself and meeting my primary school friends. We just had some chating at the restaurant and we went karaoke at Ebox, from 11pm to 1am.

On 24th June, I went shopping at Kinta City, Jusco with my mom and aunt, because my mom promised me to buy me formal shirt and pents from PDI. So I bought a Padini formal shirt (s-size) and a long pents (30") Looking back to 1 year ago, I was wearing L and 35"~36".. haha...

Took this while my mom filling the petrol!!!

On 25th June, I went Cameron with my parents, my aunt couple, my grandma and my cousin. They were enjoying themselve with the nice weather. Whereas, I was busying with my camera throught out the whole journey. haha... We quickly rush back to Ipoh around 6pm, because I gotto rush to my friend's house to eat fried noodle (trandition in Malaysia, they have dinner in their house before the day they get married, but modern style not just only eating fried noodle, but buffet).

Eating Strawberry!!!

At cameron... The water is cool!!!

Rose!!!

Cactus

Took at the Boh Tea Farm!!!!

BohTea farm

Boh Tea Farm

Sky from the hill

This is the first time I driving so far at night, I from Pengkalan to Mengelembu (The bridge's house), then to Bercham(The bridegroom's house). And I m the road blind. On my way home from Bercham to Pengkalan, I lost my way in Percham, and I lost my way again at Ipoh Garden east (I m totally not qualified to be Ipohian...LOL)

P.S. Nothing interesting in these 3 days, so make it short...better things happen in the coming 2 days... But still must comment on this blog...=.="'

Appreciate me of daring to upload so many of my own photo!!!

It's YOU!!!

2009-07-04T02:47:00.003+08:00

When I was in Ipoh last week, I was touched by Yannick gor sms. He told me, he was watching Astro and saw this korean music video called "It's YOU" by Super Junior, and I was the first one who come into his mind.

THANKS Gor!!! muarksss.....

It's YOU ~ Super Junior

P.S. Ipoh trip ~ update next...

KL Trip "21st ~23rd June 2009"

2009-06-28T22:40:00.005+08:00

Time pass fast, especially happy time. I have no time to update my blog since after my last post on 15th June 2009.

15th to 19th June ~ Time were totally scheduled with appointment and gym.

Monday, birthday celebration at Kbox for colleagues,
Tuesday school sign up for July intake,
Wednesday packing my luggage at home,
Thursday final workout before my long holiday,
Friday prepare for the flight next day.

20st to 23rd June ~ KL

23rd to 27th June ~ Ipoh

While I were in Malaysia, my time were all gave to my friends and families, don't even have time to touch the computer. You can see how famous am I. LOL

During this journey, I experienced a lot of things. First time taking flight, first time taking train in KL, first time taking express train from KL to Ipoh, first time travelling alone, first time driving during rush hour in city.

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On 20st June, I traveled alone from Singapore to KL by flight. That was the first time I traveling alone to a stranger place and first time taking an airplane. And I were so lucky because I got the window seat. hehe.

The flight I take (No money take expensive airline)

view from my seat

Around 4.30pm, I reached Malaysia LCCTerminal. After getting my lugage, I walked straight to buy ticket to Puduraya. Although it just cost RM8, the flight cost S$30; but the flight traveled 40mins whereas the bus takes 1hour plus just to reach Puduraya from LCCT. OMFG...

After my auntie pick me up at Puduraya, we walked around at ZhiChongGai (China Town of KL). They sell a lot of pirated branded things. Levi's watches, LV's bags, Nike shoes... and many... I got my Levi's digital watch. haha.... Becuase JongHyun also wearing it.

On 21nd June, I date this cute and dearly friend at Time Square, then we walk all the way to Pavilion. I missed him so much, although I just met him during my previous journey to KL in May. We eat IceCream in this Japanese dessert restaurant at the basement of Pavilion, then we went shop in Pavilion. We both bought a white long pents at PDI's Seeds. He bought 29", I bought 30"... (Dear, just 2 more inches, I will catch up with you)

My dearly friend's ice cream

My sundae

We have our dinner at a japanese restaurant at Pavilion. While we were eating, we found a cook really looks like Mr.R (The guy I like until now). I were trying so hard to snap a photo of him, but I were too shy, and seems like people around realised that...(SHY)

See that lengcai cook?

Sen dear and Shiuji
(I exchange this photo from him by changing my sundae's photo, because the previous one can see him)
he is cute right

Then my dearly friend brought me to take train to KL Sentral, then I changed to KTM train myself back to Kepong Sentral to my auntie house. This is my first time taking train in KL. Can't forget the jungle smell when the door open... LOL

22nd June went to my cousin plxace to do facial. Spent 3hours plus there, because my face really horrible. Then take a express train back to Ipoh on 23rd June.

My train ticket

I m so disappointed I can't see my menly gorgor ~ Yannick and my boyish sifu ~ Daren.
(really hope to see them...)

Yan gorgor

Daren sifu

P.S. Next time I won't bring any hope to meet someone, at least I won't get dissapointed while that person didn't appeared in the end.

幸福的距离 Distance of Happiness!!!

2009-06-15T00:00:00.004+08:00

刘畊宏 - 幸福的距离

This song is very romantic. How much I wish to sing this song to Mr. R. But I don't think I will have the chance.

Once I heard of this song in the church in the morning (click here to know more), I immediately went to download once I reached home. Can see how much he love his wife.

I don't know how much is my love. But I always wish him good. As a normal human, when the person you love break with his current lover, one should feel happy, because you have a chance; but I feel so nervous when he break with his lover, I tried to ask both of them the reason, hope they can attach back (that wasn't my business at all, why so gehpoh "busybody").

I heard of many miracle of praying to god from those Christian. Suddenly I feel like praying for my miracle. All along I never trust on any religion, I am a non-religion person, but today, I wish my pray really come true.

I wish we have more topic to talk with,
I wish I can know him more,
I wish he could understand me,
I wish he always healthy,
I wish he always happy,
I wish he succeed in his everything.

I give up all that god gave me to pray him my wish.
As long as he is happy, no matter how far is our distance, I will feel the happiness.

Satan!!!

2009-06-15T00:00:00.003+08:00

I used to be a member of City Harvest Church, because my cousin brought me once I came to Singapore. But she left the church once I joined. After that I used my own way to disappeared from the church, because I kinda don't really like the people there. To me there are quite faked and some how too physical.

SO I QUIT!

Recently, one of my cell group member in City Harvest told me FIR are going to the church again. Actually, I didn't plan to go back, because I scared they keep on calling me to go church again after that (thats the reason I gotto make myself disappeared that time).

But they are very intelligent, they went to asked my friend to go (Because I brought my friend there before because of FIR). But my silly friend can't stand the attraction of FIR, he confirmed his attendance. In the end, I have to go with my friend, I can't let my friend go alone, because my friend don't really know them, and my friend get involve is also due to me, I brought him there last time. I GOTTO RESPONSIBLE FOR THAT!!!

This Sunday morning I woke up super early to dress up myself. I wore a white contrast baseball T-shirt, grey tight jeans, white shoe, with korean style long vests and a black flower metal pin. The korean style long vests was just bought in the day before, I spent $195 dollars in one apparel shop ~ "Options". I bought: -

korean style gray tight long sleeve shirt with long scarves joined at one side
black smart flat cap
korean style long vests
black flower metal pin
tight knee 2/3 length white pents

I wore 2 out of 5 new items. SUPER GIVE FACE OK!!!

Once I reach there, I were standing in front of the enterance to wait for my friend. And I saw so many lengcai passed by, and I can feel some of them are gay... LOL... Once we went in the meet my ex-cell group members, they were stun and supprised, because I slim down so much and so fashion already. My ex-cell group leader was sitting just next to me, kinda feel that he is gay. Scared! Scared! (Not my type of lengcai, for those silly girls in the church might think he is lengcai, anyway he is a male cell group leader, and in the church there rarely have male cell group leader, girls in church always want their husband to be more spiritual then themselves)

I saw many local and oversea singers came to the church, including: FIR, 刘畊宏，Vanness Wu, Milk (Energy), and some that I don't really know.

FIR
Always the best group in my mind, just waiting their new album (they said still recording). But they sang 月牙湾 again, this song is always my favourite song.

Vanness
Now I found out he is actually very lengcai... haha

刘畊宏
His voice is amazing, and is totally different from his appearance (by look he is damn hot, which make you think his voice should be very men), but his love song is super sweet, esspecially 幸福的距离 which he sang to his wife today. (click here to see his 幸福的距离's MV) Very lengcai...^^

Milk (Energy)
I found that he is quite cute in real. LOL

We sang a lot of pray songs also. Actually, I quite enjoy the moment singing in the church. But I really can't take the people there. Too faked, realistic and physical.

You no longer in the church, you no longer their friend.
You leave the church, you are Satan.

Anyway, I agreed I m really a Satan, an angel appearance with devil's wings (as photo at the top). Nice...

Lengcai like angel but with devil's wing and heart (Final Fantasy ~ Sephiroth)

Lonely Tree!!!

2009-06-06T15:55:00.003+08:00

Please, Dont Go - SHINee

不知从何月何日，
他无疑地在我心中深处拨了种子，
那颗种子没被呵护，没浇水，
可是却一天一天长大。

在短短的几个月内，
他已变成棵大树了，
搬不走，也移不动的地步，
因为根已长到根深地固。

虽然树是长在我心中，
可是他就让我感觉无比的远，
永远触摸不到，拥抱不到，
就有如处在另一个空间永远无可达到。

虽然他是一棵树，
可是他不会为我开花结果，
因为他不长绿叶，不会为我则风挡雨，
他不长果食，不会给我甜蜜滋味。

它长在我心中，
却对我冷落无比，
可是我还对他一样的爱着，守着，
只是不能在他身边护着。

很想把他连根拔起，
因为他对我一点用处都没有，
可是却下不了手，忍不了痛，
到最后还是把他留住受尽百痛。

希望有人能为我把他给搬走，
让我心中有回个空位，
好让我找回棵可靠的树，幸福之树，
因为不想再对自己残忍下去。

可是好树不好找，
好树也不会想要长在我漆黑的心中，
因为没阳光给他食物，没水源给他呵护，
那我哪可能找到棵爱我之树呢？

特别是现在这个地步，
人人不能接受的地步，
因为我身已脏了，心已碎了，
就连现在心中的大树也守不住了。

一无所有。。。。。。。。。。

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Suddenly feeling to post in Chinese, because recently reading too much Chinese note in Facebook.com that written by most of my friends.

Not going to translate it. Because my English really poor.

P.S. Anyone willing to translate for me?

Sorry Shiuji!!!

2009-06-05T02:45:00.006+08:00

Run - Leona Lewis

I just realized I don't know Shiuji. I don't know what he really need, what he really want.

What I really need? I don't know...
What I really want? I don't know...
Am I too lonely? Most probably...

Sometime too lonely will drive me to do something that will make me regret for the whole of my life. Many people asked me, why are you so desperate to have a boyfriend? Because I really scared of lonely.

Suddenly feeling like telling a story here.

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Longtime ago, there was this little boy who are not accepted by others. Because, he is ugly on his face, poor in game, evil in the heart. He never has a friend to play with him, not even while PE lesson, no one are willing to form a group with him. So everyday he just play alone behind the school store room with his best friend ~ a old beach ball, while others were playing football or basketball at the field.

Because he was too lonely, anyone or anything can easily catch his interest. So there comes a 40+ uncle wanna play with him. At start this boy refused the offer of that uncle, but the uncle keep on approaching him. So finally he accepted to play with that uncle, and game wasn't fun at all. After just a few minutes, that uncle kick that ball out to the fence.

Without helping the boy to pick the ball, he just said sorry and went off. After that, the boy swear never play with stranger again and he start saving his pocket money to buy a new ball.

After a year, this little boy used up all his saving in the year to buy himself a new and nice ball. Although one year has past, but still no one are willing to play with him. So he gotto hide behind the school store room to play alone.

One day, when this boy was playing happily. A 40- uncle approached him to play the ball with him. Maybe that boy was over lonely and he forgotten about the old lesson, he once again accept the uncle offer. This uncle even worse, he kick the ball out to the fence, without saying sorry and he left. From that day onwards, the little boy hate uncle from the bottom of his heart.

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I wanna tell sorry to Shiuji, because I did something even worse to him.

Just now on my way home, when I was sitting in the MRT, lying my head on the window, I think of the sweet moment I saw this morning, which is two boys were sitting together on the MRT, and one was lying his head on the other, and reflect back to what I did just now? At that moment, I was totally burst. I don't know why I can do something like that.

So I sms my sister in my office. She was so worried after receiving my sms, she keep on calling me, but I never dare to pick up. I don't want to talk, because I find myself so dirty and my mouth so smelly. So I just replied her, telling her that I'm ok. And she replied: -

No matter what happen, I will not feel you are "dirty".. I will always beside you. Just tell me if you want to. Don't think of all the bad things. Remember you still got me as your sister.

Once I read this sms, I totally burst with tears, I immediately close my eyes to control my tears flowing out. I really regret what I just did. I found myself ugly, weak, stupid, dirty and useless. My brain was blank, I don't know what had happen, just don't want to see myself in the mirror.

After a minutes plus, my sister sent me another sms: -

Shiuji, Don't be not happy ok? After 12am is another brand new day for you.. If you think you are dirty just go to take bath.. Maybe I am more dirty than you.. Must be happy.. I wish to see you as a happy guy.

I don't know after today, I still have the chance to see my own true smile or not. What I just know is... People never see my sad side.

I tried to make myself happy, I walked into 7eleven, see any food that can make me happy. But I find nothing, because I don't know what food can make Shiuji happy. I really don't know. Tonight, I talk less then 10words. Really don't want to open my mouth.

P.S. Don't worry... I will heal myself soon... But it really takes time... I hope not another year again...

Lengcai Hottie Are Gay?

2009-06-04T17:25:00.001+08:00

This morning, a newly added friend on Facebook.com ~ Calum Mok posted a video link on his wall.

This is a MV of a song ~ Un Point C'est Toi sang by Zazie. (Don't really know what language is that) Anyway, I'm just to share the MV. This MV is funny.

The 4 witches alike ladies are chasing after 2 super hot guy to the river side. Who knows, in the end they find out the two hot guys are.............LOL...

Check it out!! The two guys are really HOT!!!

P.S. Don't you agree that majority lengcai now are gays? Esspecially those hot guys training their body in the GYM room. Out of 10 guys in the GYM room, 8 are gays. LOL

Enjoyable Moment!!!

2009-06-03T14:20:00.003+08:00

Life is busy!!! Life is tough!!!

I used to think to be a musician. But without my parents support, I can't afford to buy myself a trumpet, as that is the only instrument I know. Actually I like piano the most, but my parents will never support me for that.

At the time I leave my secondary school, I tell myself to work, save money and learn piano at the same time. But you think life is so easy? You think life will go on as what you planned? NO...

Once I leave secondary, I was force by my father to work in his factory as a labour (not office work), he stop me from further study, that stop my original plan. Luckily one of my mom's friend stand up to explain to my father. Then my father sent me to study LCCI in Shen Jai School of Commerce in IPOH.

After completing my LCCI, I thought I can back to my plan, but same things happened. My father force me to work as a labour again. So this time, my mom gave me S$600 and sent me to Singapore (The S$600 was to let me survive before I found a job). Working in Singapore isn't that easy. As a foreign worker like me, no experience, no qualification and no brain is hard to find a well pay job here.

To survive in Singapore, I need higher income. For that, I need to further study which is ACCA. So all my saving went to school fee and exam fee. How to learn piano?

I didn't dare to think of learning piano or continue playing music. Just enjoy the moment when others playing instead of playing myself.

Same thing apply here!!!

Never have true love come into my life;
Just watching others to enjoy their true love moment!

Never have the chance to hold my lover's hand on the street (I don't have one either);
Just watching others to enjoy their precious moment.

Never have the chance to hug someone tightly like this;
Just watching others to enjoy their sweetest moment.

Never have the chance feel the sexual moment on the bed,
Just watching others to enjoy the enjoyable moment on the screen.

Stop silly thinking. Lets enjoy the music above. Is super nice and enjoyable.

P.S. Thanks to Sen dear, he introduce the video to me. MUARRRKKK...

SHINEe ~ Julliette

2009-05-31T15:32:00.008+08:00

SHINEe - Julliette

This song is from the latest mini album of SHINEe. The MV come online after 1 week I got the MP3 from Derek sweetie. So within this week, I keep on imagining how the dance should look like, since the dances in their first album are so fantastic.

And when I saw this MV on youtube.com, it really supprised me. Many out of imagination poses have composed to this song.

I LOVE IT!!!

In this MV, you can see there are some changes to the members appearance. Haircut is the main crucial here, but there are still some minor things, that making them brighter.

The red pent hottie is my hubby ~ JongHyun

For this album, he cut his tick middle long hair to short. That make him look more boyish and fresh. And can you see that he is so much menly then the first album?

He build his body up with some muscles, not huge, but can see nice alignment. Imagine his packs, must be even more attractive. With his new look and his powerful voice sure killed a lot girl girl. (He killed me on the bed everynight la...In my dream...LOL)

The blue pent cuttie is my brother ~ Taemin

He changed his mushroom hair style and make him super cute now. In the previous album, his mushroom hair break his impression in my eye, but his cuteness turn it the other way round. So cute...

The green shirt sexie is my solemate - Key

He changed his hair color. But he still look so sexy and adorable. His sexy and powerful voice even brought him to the next sexie level.

The pink pent cuttie is my brother (JunJun) - Minho

He changed his hair style. Although is not obvious, but his menly voice still bring me hot. He is the "rabbist" is the group, because his voice is super men. Combination of Cuttie and Hottie.

The yellow pent guy is the leader of Shinee - Onew

He changed his hair style. He got nice voice... but just not my type. ^^

Enjoy the song!!! Is ROCK!!!

P.S. You may compare with their previous album appearances by click here.

Resting Week!!!

2009-05-31T15:20:00.005+08:00

For the past week, I m lag of exercise, because I m SICK!!! Not H1M1... Guarantee and Chopx100... Just heaty causing my running nose and slightly to have fever on Thursday. I felt like fainting before going to lunch, and I felt like myself getting fever. But after having some hot tea during my lunch and some hot food, I getting better after that.

My original plan was to go GYM after work, because I got spinning class that night, but all my colleagues stop me from going. Once the aircon switched off at 6pm, my colleagues start MSN me to chase me home, some even intercall me to SHOOT me home.. LOL

My nose not feeling well since Monday. And Tuesday and Wednesday I was asked to audit in a company located at Tuas (Westest side of Singapore), whereas I stay Pasir Ris (Eastest side of Singapore). And there is a big and famous shopping centre next to Boon Lay MRT station ~ Jurong Point, since I hardly come so far to shop, after work I went in to shop alone.

There are so many interesting shop here. Esspecially this shop called "Options". I found many korean style shirt selling there, and I took a few photos of them while I trying in the fitting room.

A sexy (sissy?) shirt which just have: -
1 hidden button at the top left,
2 wooden buttons at top right.
That mean totally no protection at the bottom part of the shirt

Nice to wear on : -
a nice body guy, NOT huge, better have sexy neck born and sexy six packs
(because when wind blow, people really can see your packs)
a menly guy, NOT mature guy (because this shirt bring you middle; but if you na na dei, it will bring you to naying"sissy")

A style that I searching for so long, the tight long slive shirt is sew up with a black scarve to make it look like a waisecoat.

Nice at wear on: -
Nice body guy, NOT huge, better if slim

Actually I m searching for these.......

But I m controlling my cash flow for May, so I plan not to buy them so soon, and I will just buy either one, not both, probably the second.

When come to SHINEe, I wanna thanks to Derek sweetie. Because he found this SHINEe new song~ Julliette for me before the album release. And this song accompanying me for a whole week. It is too nice to listen, esspecially listening to my hubby's sexy voice. LOL

JongHyun: Thank you dear!!! Do my sexy voice make you horny?
(Ya!!! I think his horny voice even killing me...)

SHINe - JULLIETTE

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

P.S. More introduction of Julliette in next post. Click here.

Shiuji EMO"ing"

2009-05-24T22:30:00.004+08:00

Recently, my mood is going up and down. No specific reason, just NO MOOD!!! Brain keep on thinking negatively. Most of my friends chat with me on msn will know, recently I really not in my own situation!!! Shiuji seems like not as happy as last time!!! Super EMO!!! Sorry... I know some of them wish to see me happier, wish me can become more confident of myself... But my mood really not that good to control my own feeling.

I think the main reason is my weight stop going down. Still remains at 70kg for almost 2months. GOSH... That really make me loose a lot of confident. So this reason causes a lot of sub-reasons which makes me even more EMO!!!

Since my weight lagging at 70kg, I gotto work even harder to deal with my weight. So...

Tuesday I will go to GYM at Suntec with out fail;
Wednesday will have GYM and starlight YOGA at VIVO;
Thursday will back to Suntec for spinning class and GYM;
Sunday morning will go swimming at Haugang.
Every night sleep at 2am, weak up at 7.30am in the day.
Every day work from 9am to 6pm.
I just take a simple breakfast, a normal lunch and diet at night... mean no dinner...

So everyday I m just making myself tired and tired. And this also effecting my mood. But stupid Shiuji still planning to work even harder. From next week onwards, there will be the following add-on to my schedule....

Every friday, hot YOGA at Pacific Plaza
Every saturday morning, swimming at Haugang

As I working so hard to transform myself, there are some people still wanna talk something to hurt me. ya... To some people, hurting them is some kind of motivation; but to a person tired like me, normally my mood will absorb everything I listen, so in the end, it will make me thing doing all the above are stupid, sometime make me wanna give up. This is the second sub-reason that make me EMO!!!

The third reason is the stupid weather here. Is hot until it make me really bikcik... This type of hot in Singapore is totally different from the hot in other country. Kill me...

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

Shiuji get depressed easily because Shiuji is stupid.... Just fit to the title of this song~ "Because I'm Stupid!!" by SS-501. This is the ending song for "Boys over Flowers花样男子"

Although Shiuji is so negative and EMO recently. But a lot of friends still encouraging me. Really thanks to all of them. So there are still something that motivating Shiuji to gambate.

And recently, all my colleagues and friends realised that I slim down a lot. A secondary school friend who I have never see him for a year, we was on webcam some day and he get a shock when he saw me slim down so much.

All my colleagues are the people who see me everyday, and they can realised my obvious changes, that really prove that my hardwork are not wasted. But they are asking me to stop slimming down, and the reason is I look better when I was chubby. WTF...

Even the YOGA instructor also agreed that my current weight is just right and what I need now is tonning up my body and make it firm. I accept the second statement, but I really don't think my weight is at the right level. My current BMI (body Mass Index) is 24, which is at the boundry of normal BMI, which mean if my weight slightly increase by 0.1kg, I will become overweight. That consider normal? Bullshit...

But to prove my appreciation to all my supporting friends, Shiuji will work harder and keep myself healthy and happy. I will work harder to keep my mood at perfect condition. I apologized to someone who got irritated by me for the past week, but Shiuji really doesn't mean to depress myself to irritate you. Especially to JunJun, Sen Dear, Willy Gor, Kevin dear, Ron dear...

P.S. Thanks to all of you who reading my blog as well. I feel better after I wrote all this out...

Kevin is back!!!

2009-05-16T01:50:00.001+08:00

When you start blogging at blogger.com?

Since 14 November 2008

Is this your first blog?

ya...

How you get to know blogger.com?

From a friend from Canada, Kevin.

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

A welcoming song for Kevin!
(you still my little turtle, my purple dolphin...LOL)

How you know this friend?

erm... Long story... On 5th November 2008, I received a kiss from a lengcai ~ ekkonen in trevvy.com. Then I straight away reply his kiss, at the mean time, I sent him a message also...

ekkonen's in trevvy.com and his first profile photo in blogger.com

Shiuji: Mind to friend with me? Can give me your msn?

Then ekkonen reply me his msn. (He didn't say anything, just his msn address, so I can't write out what he said...LOL) After adding his msn, we start to chat on msn. To let me know him more, he asked me to read his blog. From that day, I start visiting blogger.com everyday, and after a few days, I fall in love with blogging, so I decided to start mine.

Were you influenced by someone to make you start blogging?

Very obvious... Kevin indirectly brought me to my current blogging life. ya, Kevin is ekkonen.

From Kevin's old blog

Bringing you to blogger.com is good or bad to you?

Is good. If I didn't start blogging that time, I might not get to know all my gorgor(s), sifu, and best friends. I feel happy to know all of them, they change my life. So, back to the beginning I really wanna thanks to Kevin bringing me here. Without his appearance, you won't see current Shiuji.

Until now, you still reading ekkonen's blog everyday?

I wish to. But he has stop blogging for some time, I really miss his blog, but as long as he got new post, I will read it without absent. Anyway, he just back to blogging recently, but is in a whole new blog. So, hopefully he don't stop again, and dissappeared himself. hehe...

missing Kevin?

KEVIN IS BACK!!!

P.S.
Do you miss Kevin, Ekkonen?
If you do... Please comment here. (My main purpose is not to collect comment for myself)

I just wish to collect 25 comments from 25 different people who know Kevin as well, write down how much you miss him. (This is to encourage him to find back something he lost for so long)

If you don't know Kevin! Nevermind, introduce yourself to him here.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Good night!!!

KL Trip ~ Day 1 (Part B) A Night with Yannick!!!

2009-05-11T02:00:00.001+08:00

Yannick Gor

Yannick date me to KLCC at 8.30pm. But around 7.45pm, I have already took a cab from Sungai Wang and reached KLCC around 8.00pm. (Normally my friend have to wait for me for 30mins to an hour). I was so nervous, keep on sms with Eric Bak Ku Teh (EBKT)... I asked Eric a question before I make my decision to date Yannick...

Shiuji: Should I go? I very ganjiong (nervous) leh!

EBKT: Haha... Then don't go la. I m sure you won't let go the chance. Sure you will go. haha.. I know you.

Anyway, am I so easy to understand? I don't think so lo...

Once I reached KLCC, I went to the toilet to arrange my hair and cloth. Then I went to Giodano, Levi's, ZARA, Topman, and many many men wear shop to have a quick shop for a nicer shirt, because I wanna give Yannick Gor a good first impression. But I bought nothing, because I see nothing nice on myself.

This is me... When come to a lengcai, I will loose all my confident. Now I gotto see my lengcai gorgor already leh. My confident level not ZERO, but NEGATIVE... Within this 30mins, I went to toilet to arrange my appearance more then 3times I think, excluding when I trying cloth in the fitting rooms.

Around 8.40pm, I still haven't receive any text or call from Yannick. But finally I received his message by 8.41pm, he said he just leaving home, will reach in 20mins, asked me to wait in front of Giodano. My heart beat even faster. In this 20mins, I didnt leave the radius of Giodano, not even step out to toilet, the most I just went into Giodano, walk around in the shop, next to or opposite Giodano. The shop opposite is ZARA, I was in this shop more then 15mins I think, I keep on trying their bag in front of the mirror, but actually I just wanna check out my appearance.

After around 30mins. I tried to call Yannick Gor, but I can't reach him. I purposely not to stand right in front of Giodano, I worried my appearance will scared him from far, so I stood in front of ZARA. Don't know why so many people looking at me while I standing there, a few lengcai also, got one still holding his girl friend leh... HAHA... Suddenly I feel somebody coming from my left, when I turn my head over, a super lengcai walking towards me.

This is the photo he took by himself before he come to meet you...

That was Yannick gor... Finally I saw him... hehe... In webcam, Yannick Gor is like animation, like Final Fantasy those 3D cartoon, in real he is handsome de... haha... I still so nervous, we walk around KLCC, from ground floor to the top, we chat, and shop. (didn't shop much, many are closing) Because Yannick Gor was super late, but never mind, it was worth to wait.

Taking all these photo make him late... 果然是我哥哥！比我自恋！

Then we went to eat KFC, he eat only, I watch... haha... Although he is elder then me, he is so lengcai, but when come to eating, he will turn into a child, he seems like loving KFC chicken a lot, eat like a kid. He eat so fast like his mother didn't allow him to touch KFC for a year. LOL... One word to describe..

CUTE!!!
(gor, I know you don't like I use this word one you...)

Cute Yannick

After eating, we continue walk around, then he search for toilet to P, but he is so rich, he wanna go to the premium toilet which have to pay RM2.50 to go in. WTF... what is inside? It has operating hour also. So we just can go to the normal toilet. When he P, I just went in to tidy my hair, when he finished, I still there... So he laugh at me... But when I waiting him outside while he tidying his hair... He took the same time as me... =.="' Dare he still laugh at me... (Anyway, we are brother, what to do!!!)

I know we don't look alike... But cannot be brother?
(thats why Angel & Devil) LOL

After that we took a cab to Pavilion to watch movie. As we not familiar with this location, we spent a long time to walked to the cinema... Thats good, that make us chat a lot. We plan a lot of things, we want to watch movie, we want to go clubbing, we want to sing K, but in the end, we do nothing. We just standing there, and looking at guys around.

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

We listen this song together with his Samsung MP3 player.

Yannick is so funny. We saw a group of gay were gathering in front of Coffeebean, because a few sissy musculars were inside the group of people, so they cought our attention. Suddenly Yannick start composing what they said throught their action. Actually we are a few storage above them, so they can neither see us or hear us.

Later, we purposely passed by this group of people, and a few of them were looking to us... haha... so fun...

But happy time usually past very fast. Around 11.3opm, Yannick took a cab home, because it was very late. and it is dangerous for this grade of lengcai staying out at this time.

Thats my first day in KL.

P.S. Yannick gor is famous enough in blogger.. So don't need any link to his blog... Sorry for any inconvenient causes.

KL Trip ~ Day 1 (Part A)

2009-05-06T01:45:00.009+08:00

1st May 2009, I went to KL with 4 Singapore friends, we reached KL around 4am. Then a friend of my friend came to picked us to have some food at mamak shop, then we went to his condo to have some rest. I really miss mamak shop's food, teh tarik, mee goreng, roti canai... Why Singapore don't have mamak shop. LOL...

At his house, we found out his friend got a lot of magazines, and all magazines are about hottie. LOL... 2 of my friends not willing to sleep, they just reading those magazine and fooling around the house. But I was sick, maybe I catch a cool on the bus, so I better rest more to cure my sickness.

Around 8.30am, we leave his friend's condo and catch a cab to KLCC. Because we went to get the KLCC sky bridge free ticket. There was a lot of people there, but we still manage to get 5 free tickets, but our entrance time is 4.30pm. LOL... Since our hotel check in time is 12.00pm, so we went to A&W to have our breakfast, then shop around in KLCC.

My breakfast at A&W

Around 11.45pm, we went to catch a cab to Piccolo Hotel which located at Bukit Bintang, and which is just opposite Pavilion Shopping Mall. (How nice...) But the stupid taxi driver wanna charge us RM25 for one cab (that is super expensive...) In the end, we planned to walk to Bukit Bintang. It seems very far, but for people who used to live in Singapore, this short distance is just "a piece of cake...". (actually not far... Just the taxi driver wanna bully us...)

View from our room to Pavilion

I like our room very much, this kind of room is nice if you come with your lover... hehe... Because the toilet and the bath room are just covered by half transparent glasses, and there is no lock for the door. So you can see your hubby nice body when he shower in the bathroom, if you horny, you can even open the door yourself to join him... (So nice...)

Our room!!! The piece of glass at the back is the bathroom... which is half tranparent...LOL

Our Room!!!

KLCC Sky Bridge Visitor Pass

The park next to KLCC

In the lift

KLCC near view

View from Sky Bridge

My Dinner for the first day in KL...

Do nothing much through out the whole day, just went up to KLCC sky bridge. But when I was having my dinner near Sungai Wang, Yannick gor suddenly told me to meet at KLCC at 8.30pm, but I was going to watch X-men with my friends at 9.30pm... How?

Catch up for the next post....

Yannick gor!!!

Do you think I can see Yannick?
P.S. People who know please silent!!! But still have to comment, just silent on this question!!!

What So Fun with TFK in Sonar Room?

2009-04-30T02:00:00.001+08:00

Get lost SLUT!!!

28th April 2009 ~ As usual I went to GYM today (tuesday). Something make me curious. Anyone can answer for me!!!

After GYM I went to steam bath, a hot uncle (beginning of 30, quite good looking, normal build) came in, but I didnt even look at him, I continue lying there to enjoy my steam bath. After 15mins, I went to Sonar, I was happy I was alone there.

Just the moment I sit down, the lengcai uncle came in. He sit on the higher seat, his eyeswas keep looking at me, I just pretend I dont know. Suddenly he went for a 5seconds shower, then he came in again, but this time his towel was loose. When he went back to his seat, he took of his towel and show off his standing hard cock (very big), his eye still continue on me... =.="' I really dont know what should I do...

He see me no action, he went out for another 5seconds shower, then come back to his seat again. I see him still looking at me, then I walked over to asked see weather did he needs any help or not. But he refused... (Malu la saya!!!) Then he went for another 5seconds shower again. =.="'

This time he came back, he start masturbate, he was so horny there, his eye was on me, keep on moaning there with low volume. What for? After about 4~5mins, he cum on his belly.

WAH!!! LIVE SHOW!!!

What this people thinking? Whats the fun with masturbate in the Sonar Room? Go home la...

He still dare to look at me when he leave!!! =.=" angry already....

Beauty and The Beast!!! ~ Part C

2009-04-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

Big Bang - Haru Haru

No more Beauty and The Beast today. Feel so sad with it... All the lengcai attached with porkchop, with auntie, with uncle, with chubby oldmen, with botak. The reason is very easy. All the lengcai got money eye...($.$) Their eye are attached with 50cent stamp. Blind...

Do you think those people really like them? Just want their tools lah please...

The above is one kind of situation, this will just happen in the back stage or under table.

Another situation is.... Lengcai are blind. Not just lengcai, lenglui also blind. You can see these on the road. Normally, lengcai's girl friend are porkchop, or slut; lenglui's boy friend are chubby uncle, old men, skinny patient. LOVE really blind. Like my ex, he totally not lengcai, why I still wanna together with him? Stupid... BLIND... He is not lengcai and still play3play4 (mean fooling around) outside, even worse.

But it is really good if beauty always come with a beast, at least I know my future hubby is a beauty, because Willy said I m a beast (check out for my previous post's comment). =.="' haha...

From today onwards you can check it out when you are shopping in the mall, nothing to do in the bus or train, browsing friend's photo on facebook.com or deadmen walking on the street. You see, is that really majority of the beauty always come with a beast. That is really true. I have been seeing this for many years, so this result is garantee chop and sign by inspector Shiuji~queen of Luna Maze.

P.S. Do I just say no more Beauty and the Beast at the beginning of this post?

Anyway, I have finish it... Good Night

Beauty and The Beast!!! ~ Part B

2009-04-23T11:00:00.002+08:00

19th April 2009, suddenly feel like missing something I like for very long time, so I decided to join my cousin's family swimming at Haugang swimming pool. I didnt expect anything actually, my aim is just to swim as much as I like. I like swimming a lot, but the pool in Singapore are too crowded.

When I reached there, I quickly get myself changed then walked to the place where my cousin sit. But before I saw my cousin, I saw a super hot guy just came up from the water. His body is nicely build as long year swimming, he is a 100% sunny boy type. Handsome face with hot body. 100% my type.

Sunny boy!!! HOT!!!

But you should know. Shiuji is a super shy guy, whenever I see lengcai looking at me, I will drop my head. So once I see him, my eye was like stun, then quickly drop my head, but I saw him smile at me (smile because I too shy, not because he want to approuch me). Shame le....

I didn't expect him to go back into the water, so I just keep on swimming. When I rest after swimming 2labs continuously, I saw him sitting at the side, enjoying the sunshine (So hot, so handsome...). But a skinny uncle was sitting in front of him, and they are chating, they even have the same goggle. =.= What you think now?

No longer after, a botak mascular walk near them to join their conversation, then he start pointing to the lengcai's leg and foot, poking his foot and leg muscle, seems like teaching them to train. After that, the lengcai back to the water start guiding those ducky to swim. I think he is the assistant of either one instructor in the pool. (Lets go and register, I need to learn swimming too...hehe)

Around 12.30pm, all the people start leaving, my nephew and I change to smaller pool to play, then I saw the lengcai leaving also. You know what happen? He was leaving with the Botak. =.="'

This is really Beauty and The Beast!!!

Beauty 1!!!

Beauty 2!!!

Beauty 3!!!

Beast!!!

more about beauty and the beast will brought to you in

Beauty and The Beast Part C

TVXQ_-_MIROTIC

Now my feeling is like this song. 不爽。。。

Beauty and The Beast!!! ~ Part A

2009-04-20T01:20:00.001+08:00

Beauty And The Beast - Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson

Now is 1.17am at Singapore here. I wanna write something about this: -

Beauty and The Beast!!!

But this is really too late... Sleeping time now... Gotto sleep early for slimming purpose, my lengcai face and hair... OK... I am in a practice to sleep early, so if you see me online after 12.30am, please chance me to sleep as hard as you can....

Please....
Please come again tomorrow for my Beauty and the Beast ~ PartB. I really don't have the time to write now... hehe... I just feel happy, as I bought a 31" pent from SUB, hard to believe I can fit into 31" SUB pent, as everybody knows, SUB cutting is super small. 3months before, 34" still tight for me.... haha....

P.S. Enjoy this lovely song brought to you by Shiuji Roy.

Good night...

Amendment to the Previous Post ~~Happy Shiuji

2009-04-15T01:41:00.007+08:00

99次我爱他 (Musical Box Full Version 音乐盒完整版)

This post is to report some amendment to the previous post.

I know most of my readers have misunderstood the meaning of that paragraph.

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The correct one should be: -

And I did a cute quest in facebook.com, it is regarding to this drama ~ 命中注定我爱你. (I saw Mr.R did it). And my result is I m the 陈欣怡 (female main character), where Mr.R is 纪纯希 (male main character). LOL... (This is actual result, you can go view my history in Facebook.com).

Is the quest so true? Would it come true?? (I m dreaming, don't bother me. It won't happen la... haiz...)

(click here to see the whole post) - The paragraph right after the first photo in that post

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Before amendment: -

And I did a cute quest in facebook.com, it is regarding to this drama ~ 命中注定我爱你. (I saw Mr.R did it). And my result is I m the 陈欣怡 (female main character), where Mr.R is 纪纯希 (male main character). I m dreaming, don't bother me. It won't happen la... haiz...

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Sorry for making you confuse...

THE RESULT IS TRUE! THE QUEST IS TRUE!!! ALL TRUE!!!
But don't know will it come true!!! Paiseh la...

Happy Shiuji!!!

2009-04-13T02:30:00.005+08:00

心愿便利贴

After the previous post, I learn that people like to see a happy Shiuji. And I also realized that, a happy Shiuji is handsome, cute and lengcai then a sad Shiuji. I should have know it long time ago. But sometime I just can't control myself. I would like to thanks everyone for encouraging me. Shiuji is now transforming to Silver Dolphin, although there might still a long way to go, but at least I see a bit of result now. I find myself cute when I saw myself in the mirror this morning. LOL...

For the past week, I don't have much time to blog. In office, I need to work harder, prevending myself become the next target of my stupid new manager, now he is shooting arrow to a few stuff, playing shit in my office. Lazy to fuck him, that will just dirty my cute tools. Everning I need to go gym, because I find myself gains 1kg, that was due to the BBQ held with my colleagues on the previous saturday night. I like going for BBQ and buffet, but I hate the feeling of full after eating. But happy really make you eat much.

I feel happy that all my friends and colleagues find me slim down a lot, my lady boss was chancing me to buy some new pents, because my old pents are all too loose for me now, that make me look ugly. Shame to report here, currently I find 30inch is still fit for me, 31inch is totally nice, but 32 is loose. So I decided not to buy new pents before I feel confertable with 30inch.

I found a new friend from Blogger... haha... Erm, we msn every night recently. Maybe due to we have similar interest in guys, and our experience on relationship are quite similar too, so we can chat quite well. LOL. (You know I m talking about you....haha) I showed him my collection of Mr. K's and Mr. R's photos on webcam (saved on my psp la...), then just only I find out, Mr. K also his cup of tea, and he find Mr. R lengcai. OMG...

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I play this song because I am currently watching this drama, this drama is so sweet, ChunXi is so lengcai... faint... And I feel happy when I am listening this song...

SHIUJI FEEL HAPPY NOW!!! GAMBATE!!! SILVER DOLPHIN GOGOGO!!!

And I did a cute quest in facebook.com, it is regarding to this drama ~ 命中注定我爱你. (I saw Mr.R did it). And my result is I m the 陈欣怡 (female main character), where Mr.R is 纪纯希 (male main character). LOL... (This is actual result, you can go view my history in Facebook.com).

Is the quest so true? Would it come true?? (I m dreaming, don't bother me. It won't happen la... haiz...)

Will a handsome prince love a normal Shiuji?

How nice if I am hugging by him like this.... (Stop dreaming Shiuji...)

P.S. That make me happy enough... haha...

Luna Maze

Restart a new blog!

Sweet Dream

End of Hala!!!

Just friend!!!

First Time In Public!!

Looking Back

Heart Lost at the Journey?

Going Genting~~

Restart!!!

Missing Vampire ~ Day 1

Big Spending Starting

My Current Feeling ~ SHINee

Daily Waiting!!!

Against the Original Rule

Happy New Year 2010

Happy Birthday Shiuji 09

Tasty X'mas

Merry Christmas

iPhone 3GS 16GB

Nervous Morning!!!

Air Steward!!!

No Good Time!

One Hand Won't Sound!!!

Fattening Day!

Truth behind Words!

Ending!!!

Moon Cake Festival!!!

Clubbing Night ~ Zouk~

Testing Testing 1,2,3.

Public Holiday ~No Holiday~

自虐 ~Masochistic~

Dream!!!

Thank you!!!

Sunset ~ Love is All ~

Shiuji really SUKEBE!!!

Kidding Me!!!

Net Friends VS Real Friends

Coming Back Soon!!!

Busy Month!!!

Am I look so gay?

Finally my pray comes true!!!

Ipoh Trip "26th June ~ 27th June" Part 2

Ipoh Trip "23rd June ~ 25th June" Part 1

It's YOU!!!

KL Trip "21st ~23rd June 2009"

幸福的距离 Distance of Happiness!!!

Satan!!!

Lonely Tree!!!

Sorry Shiuji!!!

Lengcai Hottie Are Gay?

Enjoyable Moment!!!

SHINEe ~ Julliette

Resting Week!!!

Shiuji EMO"ing"

Kevin is back!!!

KL Trip ~ Day 1 (Part B) *A Night with Yannick!!!*

KL Trip ~ Day 1 (Part A)

What So Fun with TFK in Sonar Room?

Beauty and The Beast!!! ~ Part C

Beauty and The Beast!!! ~ Part B

Beauty and The Beast!!! ~ Part A

Amendment to the Previous Post ~~Happy Shiuji

Happy Shiuji!!!

KL Trip ~ Day 1 (Part B) A Night with Yannick!!!